I AM MISSING YOU

2010-03-16T16:39:00.004+08:00

relink

decided to change to livejournal.
cuz it makes life simplier for me!
lols.

anyway i made this account since time ago
jus tt i dint realli use it..

hopefully i dun change back here
cuz use blogger for at least 5 years liao..
see hw is livejournal like first.. lols.

2010-03-16T00:14:00.004+08:00

jus when i see a glimmer of hope to change.
i realised there is more to do as things are piling up for me to do.
i cant give up.
but i do nt know if i can be determined to undergo all these.

i started to learn.
i am nt bad for a starter ok!
(ps. nt talking about l4d2)
hope i become better.
but this is jus one over one hundred things to change and do!

my study mood drops by some points compared to b4 prelims
hais no more excuses and start mugging soon.

Knowing is not enough; we must apply.
Willing is not enough; we must do.
Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

i hope i can go thru things
and succeed
ppl have been asking wad i want for my birthdae
i realli dunno
cuz wad i want is nt money can buy one
sounds more chim

lols. but the first thing i will tell my mum if she ask me
is to let me go genting or cruise!
i think tts the most feasible place out of everywhere lo..

2010-03-14T01:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAE TO KOH SZE MIAO.
12 year of friendship and plus plus plus plus till forever...
haha i keep sayin but i veri proud to sae one.. hahaha
okay dun think she will be able to see
cuz after her 5 daes 4 night chalet
she is flying to thailand for some alumni thingy.
come back think my blog post gone liao..

i feel so childish calling her koh sze miao
cuz pri sch keep calling her tt..
den i still write tt in the guest book
argh.. anyway for the guestbook
me, bf, her laoma and her sis
stone for about 10 mins staring
dunno wad to write..
cant jus write happy birthdae cuz special friend
den like so wierd

anyway todae happy to see bestie jamie tan oso!
few weeks of my bottled up feelings finally diminish..
lols. dunno isit cuz bestie birthdae den i feel btr
or is cuz i feel btr.
but anyway i haf fun for the past 2 daes
besides some thoughts..

haha i wonder if the 3 pairs of us can go genting.
i realli wanna go somewhere
i can be independent
and at least leave frm this stressful thoughts.
i nw think hor study veri stress
after exam stress want study or go work
everydae stress one.. lol. i wanna go holidae
all my friends gg overseas like taiwan, bangkok.
hope my mum allow
maybe i can ask for 21st present
hahahaa

sighs.
doubt it will ever realised.
even if allow must be they go with me
but i dun wan go with them
i cant play themepark
everydae i sit at mac with sis
cuz sian of shopping there everytime
seeing same things.
wait for them gamble finish..

ok super tired. OFF TO LALA LAND

argh bestie jamie 21st 2 weeks later
sighs
need study like mad to cover for all the time
still gt other things to settle
jiayou

2010-03-13T14:05:00.005+08:00

so yest went jiamin's birthdae bungalow with dear
OMG! SUPER BIG
its comparable to one of my friend's bungalow..
so big... kbox room so comfortable can sleep until veri shaung
and got majong room lo....

ard 11 plus
samuel drove us (bestie, bf and me) to amk hub
to watch movie
dear dear treated me.. haha
we watched the Kaiji: the ultimate gambler

it is one of a quite nice show.
i initially wanted watch the only human being
after bestie explained to be the storyline
i want watch lei!
but anyway kaiji is a not bad movie tt i will recommend ppl to watch

watch until so gan chiong.
i dun dare watch one part where its super gan chiong..
scare me onli. haha.
but when the guy make it to the other pt i nearly cry la..

so the movie ended ard 2am ba
den samuel drove us back.. so shiok to drive at night
summore if gt emo nice nice music
so nice..

hmmm.. but super sian.
i haven done anything for mine.
arghhhhhhhh

i oso quite stress to hear my friend studied the dae after prelim
i am still like resting?
sighs.. and i still need plan my thingy and sighs....
seems like endless thing to do...

well. i dunno but i feel i lost my momentum to study.
Sux shit.

anyway i am chasing after the illusionist show
its veri nice and touching..
luckily 3 more days it will be ending..
if nt cfm die liao..
the next show more funny lei
tt myolie and bosco act one..
the mother-in-law show..
tt time gt the ancient one..
nw is the modern one
SIGHS

2010-03-12T09:39:00.002+08:00

all guys shd see mel lim's blog post!
about guys one... SO TRUE

anyway yest was havin a conver with a friend
i dunno y its so funny tt i keep laugin oso.. hmm

after watchin the news of jack neo's press conference
i felt pitiful for his wife..
she fainted after tt and his husband brought her out..
and reporters are still taking pics and stuff
den he said zhou kai..
like protect his wife liddat...
dunno.. he btr treasure his wife more
its realli a blessing to haf her as his wife..

den i was so engrossed with my video posted
den someone reminded me beckham gt affair b4...
fairy tales dream shattered. sighs..
dun care i dunno he gt affair...

middle of conver..
friend: ya lo.. esp if they are rich.. the more they will haf affair outside
me: crazy. so disappointed.. wonder if there is still gd guys on earth....
friend: i dunno if there is oso..
me: haf.. if i become guy.. lols
friend: lols.. no.. if u become guy maybe cant control oso..
me: can one.. mindset wont change one.. guys de nature born mindset is tt.. born one cannot nurture..
Me is nature wont one.. haha dunno wad i sae oso..
friend: with tt thing below cant control.. cant think rationally..
me: ok la den i btr go back to the past of cowherd boy and weaving gal.. hahaha
friend: i think they same oso.. jus tt no technology!

lols cuz of this jack neo thing
these few daes de topic with friends is guys and gals.

okay! later will be gg to my chalet to check things out.
den jiamin chalets to overnight ( haven ask parents.. lols. but shd be can since they noe her)
den tml need rush to somewhere den rush here
den rush back for her 21st party!
so pro la... gt 4 rms. MAJONG RM and KBOX RM
ARGH nv tell me haf!
i want oso lor...... but too late....
my one onli 4 rms and one game table..
dunno wad game table is tt oso..
must go check it out ltr..
so sians.. i still wonder if having this will take up alot of times
i cant screw my MAIN EXAMS
initally wanted to save time...
see hw...
hope can..

ok gg dig them up to watch sun rise
but most likely i watch myself
LOLS. cuz stupid bestie sae SO EARLY.

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

2010-03-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

die liao.. addicted to this youtube thing..
maybe sometimes fairy tales do happen in this world
will i be involved too?

2010-03-11T17:13:00.004+08:00

Today my bf showed me some of beckam's freekick and stuff
i think he veri lihai.. lols
i am so outdated..
i am quite impressed with his skils
but den i nv like realli go see b4 hw he play
todae first time lei..
den i want find his wedding thingy
hahaha. so sweet!!
although quite long ago le..

but yesterdae my rooney so liahi :)
man u win ac milan lei!
4-0! overall win 7-2..
so pro.. hahaha..
and real madrid lost...
and rooney nw 30 goals this season liao..
12 more goals den wil be on par with ronaldo..
in the sense most no. of goals in a season.

2010-03-11T00:20:00.002+08:00

dunno why suddenly feel super sian
maybe cuz i haf been mugging like mad since after cny tt week?
or maybe due to some external factors.
argh. seriously dunno.
all i noe is nw i feel super sians.

i feel abit regretted doing sth
dunno..
but i can do nth nw
den try to do it properly.

2010-03-10T22:24:00.001+08:00

PRELIMS are FINALLY over!
yes i did quite badly
sighs need to work like 1000000000times more harder
for main exam!

2010-03-08T21:26:00.002+08:00

study until want cry liao la..
i am afraid tml i turn over the paper
i blanked out.
i dunno wad to write.
sry
jus randomly insecure again.
so complain to my mode of rant.

back to studies.
pls help me pray i will suddenly
noe hw to do all the fm qns tml..
thanks

2010-03-08T19:14:00.004+08:00

Todae supposed to be the last dae to chiong my FM
but mabel quek quek came visit me. lols.
later shall try to absorb bit more to fill up 5 pages
i wanna at least get back my paper
haha.

Super sians lei
my prelims made me feel so f up..
but anyway she gt me my fav sashimi :)
and snacks cuz i dint ate alot todae
it has been long since i eaten burger kiing kids meal!

oh ya! she gt kinder surprise
the last time i had tt when i was super young
maybe pri sch
i last time gt collect the toy one..
but think kana thrown le
maybe i shd go buy tt sn.. but nw since its banned frm alot stores
its super ex lei...
and onli can get in ION.
omg... but i love my toy. lols.
sounds so childish.. but its grow in the dark
i love grow in the dark oso!

my sis came home ard 6pm
and we took some pics
while i wear quek quek uniform!
so cool..
miss jc life....
now i think jc is 10000times easier den accounting.
can i go back???

SUPER STRESS
i am nt afraid of failing
cuz i noe i dint practice enuff
its like 3 daes b4 prelims den my lesson ended?
and i haf been chionging ME modules since its 1st paper
hais.
BUT I SCARED I CANT FILL UP 5 pages..

some other things wander in my mind again
shd i .............................

2010-03-07T20:16:00.002+08:00

sighsssssssss
i realli cant wait liaooooo
gg bonkers over the thought of 2 daes later.

anyway so shocking.
jack neo affair exposed todae..
knew it todae morning
when dear showed me the newspaper

its like after edison, tiger, terry....
den suddenly gt this jack neo
and alot more la..
wonder if tts normal liao
trend?

I was told all guys are liddat
jus tt the bad guys are the ones caught

isit true tt all guys are liddat?
nt trying to sterotype again though
jus a causal random thought again.

2010-03-07T01:01:00.001+08:00

YAY YAY YAY
my RAINIE gg to i guess i guess i guess guess guess
next sat!
SO GG TO WATCH
MY yang chen ling
lalalallalalalalalalalalalallalalala

2010-03-06T20:11:00.003+08:00

Admist studying
its great to talk to long time no contact de ppl.
and cousin...
CANT WAIT FOR PRELIMS TO BE OVER.
still need contact pig sam in london
after tt.
and so many things
cant wait cant wait for wed 1pm to come

2010-03-06T15:46:00.003+08:00

sighs my stomach keep hurting..

and sighs i am troubled with both core papers.
i haf been trying consol till i gt fed up
and switched to fm..
looking at the answers given.
can i bring the answers to the exam hall?
i wonder if it is more practical to give up one of my core paper
or do 50% best for each paper...

accumulated some tonics for myself till main exam
bird nest, chicken essense and snow jelly
one dae each...
hope i dun fall sick..
but last year drink liao still sick lo.. hahaha.
and todae tried chicken essense i am still VERI SLEEPY
must be the weather and mood.

4 MORE DAES...

2010-03-06T00:04:00.003+08:00

yesterdae's channel 8 drama ended up with the part
a huge thingy fell from a HDB
den the 2 actors were under
when they saw tt, at the moment
they thought of the love of their life
so sweet lei...
b4 tt they dun care their gf one.
i mean other things more impt..
like own aspirations and ego..
after tt they run to their gf
one even proposed..
onli in drama den can happen one

den todae the channel u show 10pm one
wah i love the dance lei
although jus a normal simple dance
i love to see couple dance romantically
and make me think of the show i watched in china
the cloth one..
den the couple hangin in the air.. so sweet lei
sighs... i want to learn oso.. hahaa.
but i think all my bones will break if i fall frm above.
i think see btr...
always see liao i always imgaine i am the gal
hahahahahaha

sians i feel like i belong to the wrong era
hahaha

over with my HRM
its horribly done
as onli 1.5 of the topic i studied came out.
and the 1 topic, woman discrimination
i missed out all the impt points
and i basically write out the whole SG chap out
guess i will be marked down for nt answering the qns.

the rest of the qns is jus basically crap
hrm students shd noe tt hrm is about empirical evidence
theory
the rest of the qn is done like a gp essay?
okay.
i actually arent so affected cuz i noe i dint study too hard
i haf been spending time on the damn consol for the past month

and nw comes foreign exchanged and deferred tax
which 90% i gg give up studying tt for prelim
cpp oso.. sighs.
dunno see hw...
still gt lots FM qns to do!

i realli cant wait for wed to come.
den rest liao den chiong.
i love studying but i dun like the stress lei.

sighs and i woke up like 7 times the night
and veri sian i woke up feeling like main exam tt time
and the paper is poa kind of feeling.

2010-03-04T19:13:00.003+08:00

This will jus be a temporary blogskin
haha. 2 of my friends said tt the words are small
after prelims den i change another one
or explore the codes..
need do alot things after prelim!
i cant wait for 10 march 1pm to commence.
happiest dae of the month!

first thing to do is to try to get my HP repaired
birthdae thing
sth
den chiong for MAIN EXAMS
but i gg to sleep for 15 hrs for the dae after prelim

Sighs.. i am so scared tml....
i todae try to memo until my head is splitting nw.
i dunno ltr can study anot oso
trying hard to memo more than 10 ppl de quotes
all born in different year
all the names i nv see b4 in my life.
i haf all mixed it all up.
sux man.

Trying to get back my study mood

2010-03-02T23:14:00.005+08:00

SIGHS
cant CONCENTRATE frm studying since quite long
hrm so many things to memo!
so decided to come and change my blog skin
argh. after i try add zhuo bian tt song
my template code went haywire.
so here am i spending time finding one temporary blogskin to substitute..
for the time being...

I am addicted to zhuo bian
i keep listening to it..
i even summarised for my friend jus nw..
when we are chatting..
end up talk about the hsewife show..
reminds me of my character inside..
she oso tell me gt nice emo song
but i cant find! argh...

its about a guy holding a gal's with his left hand.
but his heart is beating on the right side..
the gal keep crying cuz its when she cry the guy will be concerned
so when she is happy she will oso cry
but she is afraid this will jus be temporary

She raise out her hand wanting to hold his right hand
to feel his heartbeat on the right side..
She love him too deeply she believe he understand

And she believed one dae the guy
will use his right hand to hold the gal
hold forever like there is no tml

the future is long
but believe one dae
the heart will beat as one
and hear the guy sae " i love you"

haha i recently den noe the lyrics one
last time i jus feel the song nice
but nv realli go hear the lyrics..
but recently i noe liao den like make it super nice.
lols after typing this i realised the gal keep believing in alot things
so typical me.. hahahaha.

HRM is a theory sub
i need try to memorize some chapter or read journal
is nt i dun haf time nw. jus tt my brains cant memorize nw
i will try understand... and jus crap thru on fri..
hopefully i will stay on for the 3 hrs..

i wanted leave early for ME after 1 hr.
but i jus stayed on to try my best..
keep trying although failed, at least i tried
but HRM cannot...
GOOD LUCK..
and JIAYOU

2010-03-01T19:59:00.002+08:00

总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰担心
短暂的晴天随时都可能
被阴狸收回
等待有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去
你所以连快乐里都装满伤悲

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切爱少的可怜

伸出右手
想陪着你向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
想信你会了解

总在埋怨过你的冷漠之后
又急着说抱歉
彷佛向疏远的你乞求一点体贴
都是我不对
结果有可能最美也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许太自由的你心里面那个家
谁也不能回

你不曾发觉你总是用右手
牵着我感受你爱我的心跳在左边
你和我之间的遥远
我一直相信总有一天
你会用左手牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远却会实现
心在同一边就能够听见
你说的那句我爱你
你一定看得见

2010-02-28T09:57:00.003+08:00

went to soccernet as usual
den realised yest chelsea played with man city
omg! i realli duno hw to act professional
if my gf haf an affair with a player in chelsea.
maybe i will ask for request of nt playing the game
but may nt be the case
maybe i will be more determined to win the game...

it was abit nt surprised when bridge did nt shake terry's hand
i went to see the clip
so nw i noe hw they look like. lols.
i jus see which 2 nv shake hands.
but feel sad for bridge man.
poor thing

hais... why isit liddat...
edison
den tiger
den terry!

perhaps it is jus normal
cuz guys want xin xian gan.
or outside temptations
or wadever.
cant they be loyal
i mean some. nt all..
nt trying the stereotype k

oh well..........
but anyway
so chelsea lost to man city 4-2 home lei....
but arsenal won to stroke...
so nw its one more point behind chelsea
to get top of the table
and aresnal and man u is getting closer.

off to study ME..
will be out later to lao yu shengggg

2010-02-27T19:52:00.008+08:00

Diahroea since last night!
sians...
todae oso
if onli i gt laminate my notes i will paste it behind the door
to study...
sighs... waste so much time
den sun bian think over all my food gone
when my appitite down liao...
super sians...
i supposed if frm yest lunch
cuz maid cooked de susaage for my lunch is expired..

ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME
HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM HRM
FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM FM
FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR FR

~~sighs.~~
i haf so many things bottled up
till i am so distracted...
but i believe i shd jus keep to myself
if nt i will become more childish insecure freak...
i jus feel like shooting my brain off.

anyway mum asked me if i wanna go japan in july
but with ahma 2 aunts and kor onli
lols.... so wierd...
think wont ba..
if i go japan is to see the scenery more
den 2nd impt is sashimi.
3rd den is shopping.
cuz here oso gt jap de food and stuff le..
so think wont go ba....
but its so tempting..

but i dun mind gg ~. lols
can gain weight one lei go there
ppl go there come back will gain weight one

but if u ask me if i want go somewhere nw
i dun mind
i haf so many thoughts i jus want go somewhere i dunno.
to sort my stupid thoughts.

anyway i finally found someone ard same thought as me
but too bad she's frm one drama
LOLS.

maybe in this life
i wanna go one of the 7 wonders of the world
taj mahal
if gt chance den go the other 5..
cuz great wall of china go liao.. hahaa.

see hw lor still so far
i am like day dreaming nw.

JIAYOU FOR PRELIMS
after tt i need to solve another impt thing
den settle my thingy
den nt long later main exams liao.
BZ

2010-02-27T10:45:00.002+08:00

Read this frm yahoo news todae..
Ang Junyang and Candyce Toh
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/xin/20100224/ten-783-weekends-precious-newlyweds-3c1b9bc.html

Junyang says, "When I'm up, she's still sleeping. When she's sleeping, I'm awake. Sometimes I try to go for a longer lunch with her and knock off at around 9pm. When I go home, I won't sleep till 2 or 3am.

"I try to stay awake and wait for her to come home from work. Sometimes it's good to know what goes on in each other's lives, just talking about the things that happened is good - even if it is for a mere five minutes."

Working in the entertainment industry where good-looking temptations are a common sight and celebrity marriage breakdowns are equally typical, Junyang resolutely believes that "at the end of the day, communication and mutual trust is the most important between couples."

2010-02-26T22:39:00.002+08:00

to survive..
need to noe tt the only person u can depend on is urself.
cuz in this real world so complicated...
the person u can trust is oso urself..

random...

counting down to ME prelim 2 more daes........

gonna haf breakfast with sis tml morning!
finally...
i need go stock some chocolates and cup noodles and sweets
to eat in btw meals cuz my stomach grew smaller
think must expand it again...

i cant wait for prelims to end
and den settle my stupid thing
den after tt chiong for main exam

after tt i dunno hw oso
gg to find work or wad
internship? or?
sighs.............................................................

so many other things to think
argh!

2010-02-24T21:16:00.004+08:00

4th dae of cramping.
horrible...
it nv spread tt long b4...
but its still bearable.
jus tt my appitite drops..

went to meet dear.
b4 gg work with him...
abit regret gg inside with him lei
end up when i want leave so hard..
lols..
but i jus wish one of the docs whose birthdae is yest..
i am nt used to wad he do to me though..
so wierd..
and his gf jus behind him.
omg.

i think they must be thinking i am lying
sae prelim gt studies
end up they keep seeing me.
argh.
rejected them for roadshow this week again...
last last roadshow at tampines
they saw me there again!
aiyo....

anyway channel 8 todae said sth..
when a guy enters a r/s
starting he is like a sponge..
can shape to wad gals want de..

some time later they change to log
when u kick it, it will still roll back to u..

when in a r/s super long le
guys change to stone..
no matter hw hard u kick, it still remains
wad hurts is ur leg..

2010-02-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

i envy minshi.
and joycelyn actually.

but minshi more...
cuz its so hard to maintain
but i am 100% sure they are gg to be fine.
if there will be my turn soon
i dun mind losing everything
(except family)
but i want to be like them.

2010-02-22T00:19:00.002+08:00

Sighs... since last sunday
i haf been gg BAI NIAN for 5 daes..
of which almost full dae one...
if nt is before tt gt sth on oso..
arghh
and its onli family thing and bf hse thing.
lucky no friends thing
if nt u can jus kill me..
lols...

todae is another horrible dae
cuz my dayi ma came to visit me
every month the pain jus get worse.
if nt more daes..
used to be no pain at all
slowly increasing to first dae
nw it seems to extend to dae two and three
and a dae b4 too...

i am ok with the pain
i jus cant get over the fact i haf to waste few hrs lying on bed
tossing and turning.
and unable to eat my lunch
cuz i cant even sit down.
end up i jus ate the panadol
the one for fever running nose tt one t
he doc prescribe the previous time
cuz i am allergic to dunno which panadol?
so i eat tt one the safetest
after sleeping felt btr but still pain

but at least my leg nt cramp le

so left to dear's hse.
todae de dinner gt the prawns we catch tt dae
still fresh wor
and so fat la the prawn
after dinner was a few rounds of majong
with dear and his sisters.
new majong set
the tiles all so smooth lo
keep dropping..

after tt continue watching impossible III or 5?
lols.. channel 5 one.
so jin zhang la.
i dunno if i gt watch b4.. but shd be quite long
dunno lei like so familar..
but i realli tot tt husband die la..
i nearly cry lei
but suddenly he woke up
so sad lei...
if he die..

anyway yesterdae went to bai nian oso..
went to dayi hse..
with dear...
had 933 de curry chicken, noodles
yummy yummy lo..
and cuz dear allowed me to weight
i like lost one kg..
so i ate 7 satays after tt
den realised i nv lost weight...
cuz tt weighing scale one kg lighter..

after tt dear play majong
den i sit beside see
overall he won some amount..
nt much but still at least nt as bad as after the game ends
cuz i lost almost all of wad he won
hahahaha.
i dunno want to be happy or nt
cuz my dear wont lose anything else...
but i feel guilty.. haha
must be tt frog pouch my cousin pu
face me lei.. haha. next time bring my emo-mo or my tortise

sighsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
prelimssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
issssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
killingggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

this few daes i quite childish
anyhw fa pi qi
todae worse lei
cuz besides crying i threw apart all my notes
nw i need to spent some time packing them
stop being childish man seriously
if i dint meet dear todae and jus stay at home
i think i will turn crazy...
veri stress lei..........
i stress nt cuz i dint study
is cuz i study liao still dunno..
concepts concepts concepts!

2010-02-20T13:34:00.002+08:00

U're expecting a msg..
the other party hasnt reply..
u keep looking ur fone every few mins
still no reply
u gt fed up and threw ur fone away
swearing nt to see ur fone anymore
five mins later u went to collect it and see if the party has replied.
i laughed...

its so like me..
feel abit bad for laughing
when already feel so sad and pek chek
but i cant tolerate this kind of thing
it so sounds like me in the past..
so when u threw ur fone away
i am 100% sure by 5 mins u will take it and see again..

LOLS.

2010-02-19T22:39:00.003+08:00

its jus a fucked up me.

i am so stressed till i FEEL LIKE burning all my papers.
tearing all my notes.
and give up.
but of cuz i wont..
havin paid more than 15,000 plus plus plus already..

can i haf a smarter brain.
can i zhen qi....

besides isolating myself after these 2 daes of bai nian
i am nt gg to sleep early
or wake up late already.
no more tv except during dinner time.
i am gg to shut myself frm everything sn.

and there is this making me more fan de thing.
i haven even did anything to it..
its like one month plus it is coming..
i hope i still gt the mood..

I cant wait for 25 may 5.30 or 6.30pm to come..............

HAIS.
i will jus hang on till den...........................................................................................................

in btw them...
watch my stress level , stomach and diet.

2010-02-17T09:01:00.002+08:00

Nighmare till 6am lei
i slept quite early last night.
wth i dreamt my father gt shot in my rm
den the person wanna shoot me so i cant
go find my sis and mum
i was so scared...
and the story continues...

after 6am i gt 2 dreams
1 is i totally blank for my hrm prelim
den i even bring a trolley of food inside to eat

lastly my stupid dear realli gg overseas study
i made him promise me call me everydae
no matter hw ex isit.
hais.

super tired and sleepy
although i slept for so long....
all dreams lai de..

2010-02-16T19:58:00.003+08:00

These cny i nv eat much cookies lei
i think one oso nv eat..
all i have been eating is steamboat
but todae is macs and pizzahut at ahma hse..

abit regret deciding tt thing.
i dun feel excited as b4 already.

2010-02-16T01:22:00.002+08:00

last yr celebrated quite alot of cny
and of cuz bad year

this year dint get a gd cny
so hopefully i will get a gd year
dunno
maybe its jus i dun haf the mood.
and so many things.
damnit.

kill my brain cells.

2010-02-15T01:57:00.002+08:00

jus finish watchin the 200 pounds beauty
2am in the morning!
but the show is so nice sweet touching...
cry one lei..
although chatting with mel on msn
she oso watching...

in conclusion
i wonder if hannah realli change back to her old self
will the guy still accept her nt...
lols this kind of thing so complicated..

but in the movie
the gal veri brave lo..
although it is expected she will do tt...
confess in front of everyone..
in real life take super alot of courage..
like a few eg in the showbiz
sometimes ppl find out hw the singer look like or wad
den dun support anymore
like eg. a few years ago one male singer

but for this show,
the song super super nice and sad
별 (Byul)
although this show quite long ago haf liao
but normally during holiday i rather watch dramas one
dunno lei..
so todae den i watch
since it is screen on tv.

2010-02-15T00:15:00.002+08:00

die liaooo
got 2 movies i wanna watchhhhhhhhhh

1) valentine dae
2) 72 Tenants of Prosperity

dunno who to ask
hahaha..
i always want watch the movie like no one
who will watch with me wanna watch one
if nt is reject one..
dun wan ask le..
maybe pull my bf go watch with me

but hais
PRELIMS COMING LEI
but the 2nd one got my charmaine and linda....
omg
duno hw..

see hw.

2010-02-13T23:15:00.002+08:00

SNAKE
BAD YEAR LEI
omg...
see la
gt r/s and f/s problem
die liao.......................

and will be sick.
and cannot do business..

i shd buy more black shirts......
or dress and wadeva.
ARGH

2010-02-13T22:52:00.003+08:00

Argh so whole dae dint study yest.
todae morning went temple pray ancestors.
den had lunch
and slept like pig
cuz super tired...

yest i slept at 1am
den my bf called me at 1.30am
he jus finish packing his things..
lol but i tell him i still awake
i think tts the onli time i listen 80% of wad he sae

for guys first year normally hear 100%
2nd year hear 80%
den continue to depreciate.. hahaha

oh its the first time we ate tgt as a family
todae.
someone bought induction cooker

i still dun haf the cny mood!!!!
i onli look forward to the food
hope will help me gain weight
i need try gain 5kg b4 i lose at main exam
hahahaha

2010-02-12T23:59:00.006+08:00

OMGGGG
i woke up at 6.25am on a non-sch dae....
todae pei my sis go her sch
NYJC.
i am supposed to wait for her at canteen till end
i wore the wrong shirt todae
i wear pink.....
den everyone wear uni or pe shirt...

anyway while waiting for sis
den i realised my SMS fxn gt problem
WADS WRONG WITH MY HP OR SIM CARD
this is my mum spare fone btw
i dint realise till i was msg-ing my friend last night
but i was wondering y she nv reply...
den morning i msg jielin
i noe she on the train to work..
so she will reply oso..

but nv lei.. den i sent myself a msg den dun haf
arghhhhh
my friend quite scared cuz send 3 msg last night i dint reply
dint even received.
den she missed call me twice at 4.30am plus.
den when i wake up i so scared
i tot my dear sth happen....

argh and he went ~ w/o telling me..
feel like ~ his friends!
next time i go i wont sae osooooo
lols.. tts so impossible.
i everything oso tell him one...
next time must change liao..

after tt cab down to Chung cheng main sec with sis
cuz she wanna go see teachers
wahh the sch gt pond lei...
got turtle and fish...
AND SO NICE PLACE TO STUDY
if i study there sure veri relax one....

okay den went to the hall when her friend reached.
the hall like lecture hall like tt
gt seats one
so gd...
oh ya i see a few performance like nt bad lei
dance one and wushu?
i veri long nv see performance liao
hahaha..

ok supposed meet dear
but i left sis at ahma hse downstairs,
while made her call someone bring her up
den i left le..
cuz late to meet ice..
i dint even noe todae gt ppl go ahma hse
normally i dunno anything one
todae den i noe...

so i went home change and put my bag
den off to meet dear to meet jamin and samuel for lunch
at suntec..
Astons : )
i am so adicted to hickory chicken..
fried fish is nt bad oso
eat until super full lei..
cant even finish my fries
cuz fried fish keep flying towards me!
but hai hao la i onli gt energy bar for breakfast
cuz todae the canteen nt open...

den we walk ard..
den shop
we spend almost 200 bucks tgt
shock of my life.
i spent like half a thousand in one month liao
cant go out already..
actually i already tell myself i nt gg out liao..
but i am ok la...
alot of things i buy is for Long Term investment one...

lols..
after tt we went to dear hse lor
cuz i wanna pass his dad his birthdae prezzie
i want more sincere lo
cuz dear sae no need...

when reach home...
my dear went to bathe
den i was left with kitchen with his mum.
i am so scared...
den i jus see her doing the crab thing.
cuz she cooking crab
den i stand like singing national anthem liddat

i cant think of wad to sae
end up i sae stupid things
i ask her if tts the egg of the crab
when its obvious its tt
den i ask so isit female.
wad kind of qn
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

den i see her hw to cook
oh ya b4 tt i gt ask her if need help
cuz normally in drama they liddat one
den i was thinking..
if she ask me on the stove
i really die liao....
i think i faster go learn hw to cook
lols..

worse is i cant eat crab one...

so i ate the shell

tt one already open no need do anything

and its all CHILLI CURRY SAUCE

HOT SI REN. lols..

BUT ITS YUMMMY :)

den watched tv den waited till 10 plus
den left le..
cuz i scared no last train..
i already spent like a bomb liao
cannot cab anymore..

hais..
one problem solved.
another big problem might come.

2010-02-11T19:59:00.002+08:00

todae was supposed to go out
but was postphoned to tml.
hmmm.

mel mel mum made kueh lapis den give me some :)
its super yummy
i wanna learn to make alot of all these..
and learn hw to cook soon.
most prob after exam..
i still haven tried strawberry cheesecake and stuff.
so many things to bake
if onli i haf an oven.

den 3rd time in my life was given flower
hahaa.
first is frm jc classmates during v dae
den second is bf..
haha so todae is the 3rd time...

so was abit better todae
till i reach home
my parents bringing sis to hos
cuz she feel like fainting again
sighss....

hope she will get well soon.......

2010-02-11T09:28:00.003+08:00

these few daes woke up feeling heart-suan
argh..
and the nights haf been unable to breathe pso roperly again.
blame it on my consol. hais.
i need more smart brain sells.

yesterdae after sis sch, met her for lunch
and went shopping with her..
my mum wanted us to exchange some red packet things
for her office ppl
so we had to spent 88+20 bucks for 2 set of red packets
each set need spent 88 bucks.
this kind of work strategy is to attract my mum
when my sis and i go claim realli look like auntie
calculating all the bills
arghhhh

anyway city square mall has cotton on!
but it isint veri big
but we went in and out spent nearly 60 bucks
lols..
with cotton on, popular, ntuc and alot of nice food
i think i can spent alot everydae liao
must try to avoid gg there!

sighs..
so many stupid thoughts
i can think so much for stuff
but i dunno why i cant hit the jackpot for consol!
stop thinking rubbish
cny is coming....

well..
i dunno why i am so scared to go....
i dunno wad to do oso lei..
i dun feel like playing blackjack anymore
last year i win so much, celebrate so much
den i get a shit year
this year gt so many things tt may happen
i dun wan shit year again.

ok i am left with a pair of shoes and bag.

2010-02-10T20:01:00.001+08:00

By2- Don't go away

Looking through your eyes, there’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine
How could I survive when you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high?

Can’t stop the tears from fallin’
We used to be so fine when you walked into my life
I tried to reach out for you just to be with you
My heart is breakin’

Don’t Don’t Go Away
Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so.
Don’t Don’t Go Away,
I’ve never been on my own before.

Wooh…. Oh….
Can’t you hear me just take me with you
So don’t don’t go away

Don’t Don’t Go Away,
Baby, don’t you know, I miss you so.
Don’t Don’t Go Away,
I’ve never been on my own before.
So won’t you feel my heartbeat once more

2010-02-09T19:44:00.002+08:00

todae its fr again
wasnt in a gd mood todae
all my words i spoken all attitude one..
summore fr test made it worse
dint even feel like talking.
i couldnt do alot and i jus skipped
so of cuz my balance sheet cant balance!

i dunno wads wrong with me todae
i was realli nt me todae
i veri attitude
could jus walk off fast after lesson oso
i dunno i jus want to faster finish things and jus rest.
my friend ard me oso quite pek chek aft fr
luckily we both nv quarrel
if nt die liao
gt more things to settle.

lunch time was better
de-stress session.
so i was feeling better after tt
library to continue consol
the thing tt waste my time
is spending almost 1 hr on one Fair Value Adjustment
its jus one working.
me and joyce tried
failed la
fail until super pek chek
so i jus called xy to ask.
i realli dunno why cant do it..

i like already fully impaired ever since consol starts
so many other things..

dun realli feel like celebrating cny

2010-02-08T19:56:00.002+08:00

SIGHS
i wasted the dae todae
staring at fr.
gd luck for my fr test tml

2010-02-07T22:17:00.004+08:00

did this with dear todae
lols our new symbol...
i need to find alot of things to make for this
t shirt, cups and stuff
lols..
when i haf the money...
i think after cny.

so after tt we went to walk at causeway
board my fav bus journey to sk.
den snack b4 gg his hse for awhile
he cook fries for me and his sis
den off we go again.
cuz he gg some party.

on the way, at the traffic light..
i saw a fire engine den i pointed to him
den he tot its other rota
den suddenly he saw his rota one
todae supposed to be his duty ma..
haha.
den they all smile at him
den my bf shock see them den forget to shout he ord liao to them
haha.

i feel my bf sad lei
cuz if is me i will sad
every time duty den gt fire call
den fight fire and stuff tgt... and so many things.
but my bf sae he ok lei.. at least nw gt freedom

i oso imagine my bf in the fire engine
den i will be veri proud of him
but on the other hand i will nt want to sign on if possible
hahaha so mao dun.

if onli i can sign on oso.. haha
den i dun need to study already.
but i dun think i can even carry that hose thing and stuff.

when his rota gt duty on sat den we go visit them ba.
cuz every sat morning is the public can visit one..
the thing i regret is i dint go when he working there.
cuz he can operate some thingy den can bring me up some like 8-9 storey building.
but nw he cant liao..
if i bring my consol qn up i think i can jus jump down.. hahaha.
JUS KIDDING.
i wont be so stupid to choose this path.

but i feel like gg somewhere no one de
den scream like nobody business..
here i think cant ba
i think ppl will think i am crazy.
but i think since its a stressed society
maybe they can invent some place for ppl to destress.
w/o need spending money one.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
(complaining and de-stressing session)
my lecturer says do consol qns either will pull all ur hair out...
for me.. its half of the axe medium size medicated oil gone..
stomach getting smaller again..
hao bu rong yi expand..
nw i eat abit full liao...
gastric ever since consol started
recently its more frequent.
dun dare weigh myself even if i can nw..

i realli feel like banging wall lei
i cant do consol qns seriously
i feel so stupid
when others can do it.
f. stupid actually.
i can try 1 qn for few hrs and my ans is still blank or left unsolved
or paused at a few sentence.

can u tell me hw to pass my exam
or rather prelim, next month...
if i cant finish my consol
i feel like stayin at home for cny already.
if nt i wont be happy at ahma hse
when i am stress over my unsolved qns

so here i am trying to destress
talking to ppl who haf nt done the tutorial
lols.
hais.
but end of the dae i will stress more..
cuz i realli cant do
i dunno why.

2010-02-06T23:00:00.003+08:00

sighs..
todae blank sheet of paper is my ME test
end up when the lecturer left the rm for sth
i oso leave with my friends le.
i open book oso cant do lei!
so stupid....

den i took the wrong bus to far east
i dint noe 77 doesnt stop there
i tot since it goes to plaza sing den i jus board
on the bus so suay gt roadworks...
den like end up right side and left side de on one way road...
so delayed......

for the first 15mins of my meal
i keep thinking hw stupid am i for getting cheated of my meal money
but den end up calculate liao realised i was wrong..
but nth realli happen cuz when i tot i was overcharged
i dint do anything...

but shoppping was okie :)
the ending was horrible.
lols. i spent so much lei..
actually jielin oso..
we end up reduced to sharing dinner.. hahaha.
cuz i left with $1 cash in my wallet... LOLS.

argh..
but $32 is for investment purpose
$35.40 is for the dress i like since months ago
but i dint dare try end up i tried and quite fitting
and stupid me keep trying to ask myself to buy..
by saying like this dress is like made for me.. LOLS.
but i realli like it..
$46 is for supporting jielin's friend
(hahaha. this is jus excuse)
her friend gave us discount on sth tt i like
and i think my bf will like so i jus buy. hahaa.

the rest is on meals.
sighs i dunno hw to survive next week
cuz tml i need buy at least a pair of shoe and bag.
think need to cut down on my extra meals.
i spent alot on food in sch actually..
cuz i keep eating sth every 2 hrs..

I AM SUPER SIAN
I CANT DO MY CONSOL
FEEL LIKE SLAPPING MYSELF
STUPID ME.
I CANT POSSIBLY HAND IN A FAILED PIECE OF TEST ANS SCRIPT
NO MOOD FOR ANYTHING CUZ OF THIS.
DAMN!

2010-02-05T22:05:00.003+08:00

gosh
spent the dae todae studying CONSOL.
i dint even read one sentence of ME...
tml i am prepared to open book test liao...
anyway my friend told me he gave us the ans again
lols.. dunno what kind of test is tt..

Weekends will be out both daes lei.
shop shop for new year clothes and stuff
probably i will go repair my fone oso!
i hope it can still be revived..
all my contacts and SAVED MSG is there.

2010-02-05T00:57:00.002+08:00

MY FONE DIED ON ME..
when i reached sch.
luckily there is a thing called FACEBOOK
i knew minshi will be there so i went there
to tell her to inform rt and mel my fone died
den i cant receive or sms anymore
and to convey tt i am in the lib..

ARGH IT JUS DIED LIKE TT
i dint drop it or wad
jus suddenly thats it man
i spent half and hr trying to repair.
failed
den bug came frm his lesson
help me oso cant.
SIANS.

summore i am those rely on sms
sending like maybe 3500 a month
hahaha.
cuz i dun like talk on fone..
den i need to reply a few ppl.
but i dun like to use bugs fone
his fone keypad spoil liao
argh..
so spent more time sending...
settling things..
ps bug oso keep fanning u. lols.

argh..
w/o fone = horrible.

so uneasy the whole dae.
but at least its gd cuz i wont keep sms-ing

anyway mum kend me her nokia 6760.
argh.. i spent like some time trying to get use to the sms thing.
still failed.
i am super used to sony
i type like tortise compared to i type using sony.
the onli thing i like bout this fone is cuz its small...

i cant even put my memory stick on this fone.
there isnt alot of space
there is no saved items!
ALL MY MSGES I SAVE IS GONE.
i hao bu rong yi accumulated those i want de lei!!
and most of my contacts
its all crazy nw...
i've gt the last last time de contacts
i dunno why...
nt new one which i changed.
so wierd..
but i am gg bonkers over trying to find out..
i gave up liao

hope my fone can be repaired!

2010-02-03T23:59:00.003+08:00

have been waking up super early since last sat!
todae woke up early to bring sis to sch..
cuz yesterdae she did IT nt IT scan. lols
she corrected me jus nw..

2nd time i go there
i think its quite nice..
i like the entrance area tt thingy..
the water-decor thing
hahaa. dunno hw to call it..
we reached quite early
so i waited for mabel quek quek to reach b4 i leave..
their attendance is marked by tapping card...
i think its easy to pon lei..

but anyway so i left home
den while lunchin halfway
my mum asked me go fetch sis back
so shock again.. cuz sis sch end at 5pm..
sighs my sis sick so i left to fetch her during lunch instead of 5..
hais!
when i reach see her i veri scared and worried one lei...

anyway the ~ seeing me the second time
asked me the same qn
anyway at first i tot he concern for my sis
end up is he scared gt flu so ask me to tell sis to stay at home..
if nt spread to other ppl.
i wanted sae nt flu la.. but i dun wan explain too much
so left le..

so i called a cab den went home liao.

oh well!
its FM test tml
seriously i dunno hw i am gg to fail it man
i like prepare less than 50%?
i gg read till 1am den sleep le..
i haven been sleeping alot since sat!
summore as usual, dreaming the whole night away.
i dun mind if its dreaming all my modules thing
den i haf more time to study lols
in my sleep!

I haven haf any wish this year lei
So i shall wish tt my sis will get better soon : )

2010-02-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

FR SO HARD
lead me to gastric lo..
i stomach pain all the way..
i stress my stomach will pain one..
den ren all the way...

after tt went meet dear
Went PRAWNING with jiamin and samuel
i wanted fish spa lor
but end up we jus ordered the 3 hr 30 bucks per rod
2 rods.

i first hr i like dun dare dun dare dunno dunno
alot prawn swim away cuz i dint do it the right way
so i decided to watch my bf do it...
den me and jiamin went to bought dinner
so many food...
PORK SATAY, OTAH, SAMBAL SOTONG AND STINGRAY
I LOVE FOOD : )

so i spent the hr sitting at the table eating...
hahaha. the rest continue prawning
after eatin i energetic liao so i go prawn.
SO PRO lei mavis.
nt long later gt prawn liao
its medium size hor...
den after tt got more confidence liao
den roughly noe hw den end up i caught 6-7 the last hr
and i am so proud tt one of them is the biggest...
seriously it is veri big
so hard take out i so scared i fall inside the pond!
lols.....

anyway the last hr is cuz gt ppl tell us there gt more prawns
den he gave us his tadpole or sth instead
we use pig heart is harder...
so happy and prawning is so fun...

but sighs..
on the sad side...
halfway bestie and her bf left
cuz sth happen.
i so scared lei..
hais... anyway BESTIE u take care ok!
if u read my blog
No matter wad must Cheer up hor!

anyway 3 hrs up den they nv chase us away
so we continue to prawn abit more...
den ice daddy called to ask him where he
want fetch him nt
he sae ok.
den arghhhh
i so pai seh + scared.
but end up his dad fetch us to his hse
den i jus go lo
den see my prawns awhile den go home

tml morning gotta wake up early bring sis to sch
cuz she do Ch*m* and IT scan todae
And tml is FM DAE MAN>
FM TEST ON THUR.
ARGHS..
den ME TEST ON SAT.
jiu ming ah.. mel sae hard lei
die liao..

2010-02-01T23:42:00.003+08:00

anyway todae woke up at 5.25am
cuz my dad tot it was 6.25am
he need wake my sis up at 5 to eat medicine
b4 she can take breakfast at 6
but end up i wake up so early
i cant get back to slp
omg super sleepy ah...

train and bus super crowded
it was horrible carrying one heavy laptop with one hand
and trying to balance.
i hate mondae's traffic..
and hw i wish this laptop is lighter.. haha.

anyway sis tml no sch again
she gotta do C**m*
hope everything goes well..

sighs
had a little chat with friend
in conclusion i am in great danger.
i am stressing the wrong things.
at the wrong time...

Oh!
YESTERDAE MAN U SO LIHAI
i watch the video of their highlights todae
my friend show me the link
so PRO La
esp my rooney
hahahahaha...
yay.
but man city win la
i still cant accept the fact tevez like tt lei...
i dunno.... i dun like...
betrayer? revenge? although if think for him abit sad la..
cuz nt recognise...
but sometimes is depends on situation one ma
like put which player and stuff
aiyo duno la
so complicated.. hahaha

and so sweet Bestie is celebrating first month annivesary todae
hahaha
i dun celebrate month lei..
but anyway i sae sweet cuz they still in their honeymoon period
hahaha...

i wonder if there is guy who can treat everydae as honeymoon period
nw like so few...
hahaha.
but gals like lor!

i wonder hw long my thoughts of doing sth will last.

Hais and MY STUDIES HW

2010-02-01T13:11:00.004+08:00

Hais.
so i bought my laptop to sch
hais..
actually i can finish my ecr slots on time during break
cuz when lecture start
the lecturer came out and ask us in..
he recognise us!
but i haven help my friend!
end up delayed
and since its workshop todae
i like missed the whole thing.
abit pissed.
but its over already.
i wonder why cant use firefox oso.
onli ie can...

i oso feel bad cuz i ignore the lecturer
and jus continue use.
hais nw hw i dare to ask him qn
so pai seh...

worse is need to discuss with mel on fone
den i scared i cant help my friend choose this and that
end up the person who i asked to let me share the table one
pissed with me
i dint look at her face
but rongtai tell me she angry
i shdnt ask her lend me pen lo!
end up she warn us but nt the fierce one
like jus sae..
but rt sae till like veri scary
but my face was on the screen..
end up she complained to her friend when we go back LT
rt heard it cuz he went toilet..
she must be cursing me like mad. hais...

although its nt veri much of a hrm workshop
i think its useful to help find journals and stuff
i dun want spent more time wasted to find out hw to do lor
damn.

anyway i am okie with my uk lectures (ones i can choose)
but i cant choose LOCAL
its all shit timing
i haf lessons conseqetively a few daes b4 the exam
CONGRATS TO ME.
and its nt the module tt i haf exam on the next dae.

hais.
i am jus plain unlucky
tt this time cant use firefox.
and worse is i dint noe gt workshop
nw all depend on rt liao..
hahaha..
but i think during lesson he nv concentrate one
i think me minshi and maybe mel noe why..

2010-01-31T13:08:00.005+08:00

Tell myself everthin will be ok..
i gg to scape thru this prelims and pass my main exams
will be able to cope with r/s and nt always fa pi qi to anyone anyhw
SIGHS.

wads wrong with me
i haf no time liao still agree to ~
den it wil be whole dae gone
i shdnt haf asked ppl ~..
i feel obligated to sae OK to ppl nw.

seriously i shd try nt to use my laptop any longer.
and facebook.
besides resting time. perhaps my onli rest time is dinner time.

PARDON ME.
I AM ALWAYS LIDDAT AFTER FR.
SIGHSSS

2010-01-29T23:54:00.003+08:00

my sis dint went sch todae:(
i tot todae sentosa outing as a orientation plan thingy
will be a gd chance to blend and at least make friends
but den...
mabel quek quek told her tt her og mates asked for her todae:)
so she will be gg og outing!

but think she better dun go todae
cuz yest she played 2 ice breakers game
den go rashes and stuff...
so todae we went to the temple
ahyi drove us there..

wanted to lit the lantern or sth one..
duno wad isit called but the person-in-charge..
so we dint lit.
aiyo i forgot pray my dear will be safe todea!
i onli sae my family and his family safe
haha i think shd be same la hor.. todae oso considered.
wonder wad his station makes gg to do him todae
pre-ord is realli bad already
sighs.......
so worried...
and tml need wake up for ME lesson! argh. 6.25am!!

anyway so after tt we went to bishan j8
we had lunch at crystal jade
i wanted ding tai fung actually
cuz i gt cravings for xiao long bao
but we ordered tt at crystal jade
omg la.. my sis ordered alot tian xin.
den i stil ordered noodles
lols end up cant finish.
luckily one of my aunt having lunch break with her colleuges there..
den the ahyi who drove us there
came with my cousin. haha..

haha i dint noe i tell him my aim of weight gaining is till 48kg.
he reminded me jus nw
and wanted to give me 2kg!
i dint noe i like tell so many ppl. hahahaa.
ok he tell us alot of joke
sth tt i feel is the funniest is..

he said if u soak raw egg in vinegar for 1 hr
it will be able to bounce and wont break if u hit on the ground
so he said go to 20th floor of HDB den just throw down.
den i said so it wont break?
wad if it breaks.
den he say oh den too bad for the person who kana
who ask the person to be there at the wrong day wrong timing
LOLS.
the way a kid says will be so funny la..

so went walk ard
den we go city square..
bought a set of new year clothes and extra top
(jielin, dun wry i stil need some more...
hahaha. and i need shoes. so i will still buy with u)
and sth tt my dear will like me to wear. hahahaha.

arghed after the whole dae of shopping
i keep complaining like dint study
cuz NEXT WEEK GT TEST
and SUNDAE gt CONSOL lesson
i dunno at least 75% of wad he taught
i will be damn lucky if he ask me qns on sundae.
i cant even do his tutoriall..
i die le la... hais... dunno hw
cuz tml fel party...

haven gt her gift yet..
cuz cant find.
and julian suddenly want share
so i need find sth more ex...
so will be gg fel party tml with dear!
wonder wad will happen.
i dun wan play games lei
cuz beside bf and julian and fel bf i dunno who liao
they better nt play ice breakers game.
i will be veri quiet..
hahha
argh...

sighssss
its DEARS ORD TODAE.
i gt extra module to take liao
(hahaa.. edited and quoted frm mels blog some time ago)

anyway its thaipusam todae
i dun think i can sleep tonight
the temple is jus opp my hse..
but i dun dare see lei
the whole thing pierce thru the skin
i so scared one...

if i do ah i think cant pierce thru ones
cuz all bones.

sighs..
shd i pon my 2nd half of HRM lesson
and ask rongtai to copy wad my lecturer saes.
sighs. if onli xy is in my hrm lesson
hahaha. cuz onli me and her copy most things during lessons
den i can fang xin de pon.
but nw i dunno lei
sighs i cant think of any other feasible solutions.

2010-01-28T21:40:00.002+08:00

went to meet bf todae morning.
he called me the moment i woke up
haha.
so i meet him...
and left sk at 2pm for FM
super far to my sch... one hr plus

Sighsss
i getting more and more stressed
cuz my friend keep asking lecturer qns every week
till dunno wad time.

I Am so gg to be hardworking!!
like soon. hahahaha..
i cant wait for 1st feb to come
den i can start planning my timetable!
i heard the UK revision lesson de time is morning till mid noon
den mid noon till 10pm!
i dun want till 10pm
the worse thing i can get.....
is mid noon till 10pm on april 10

den i dunno hw liao... hahaha...
sigh.. the thought of nt able to book on the dot..
i realli heart veri scared...
dun wan bad timing too!
hahaha
arghhhh....

2010-01-27T23:11:00.003+08:00

Oh well!
its sister's first dae of sch tml!
after resting for one year...
hope she will JIAYOU this year..
den dun be like me. hahaha

lols. my first dae of jc so scary
everyone crowded near the General office there
to check for orientation grp-ing..
den so scary..
but i met a bunch of taurus-es
haha.
that's when i meet 2 other friends
whose birthdae is same as me :)
but we'll nv get to celebrate tgt on tt dae.

after year 1 of uni
i realised hw easy isit to do well during JC.
regretted playing ard at year 1 b4 promos.
although it was fun. lols.
when i started realli studying...
i realised chem is actually so easy
but i started too late.
econs, bio and maths is my parents got tutors for me.
den i can pass one. haha.

Oh well,
veri worried for my sis tml lei...
mum will be gg with her and wait for her till she end sch ba..
but mabel quek quek will be gg NYJC oso..
and ice best friend's sis who is mabel ex-classmate.
lols. like so coincidental...

fridae will be my bf's ORD dae..
so many thoughts.......

hmm....
have been trying hard to plan things properly...
hope next week no consol test on tue...
mondae need rush home do ECR.
which i think either left with weekend slots or maybe near-exam slots
which i can jus go bang wall..
sighs... y am i so suay. argh!
gt lesson tt dae, tt time summore!

okie.
so for the next two weeks apart frm sch.
i haf taken one dae out for prawning with jiamin+samuel+bf
one dae for movie+meal+etc with jielin+huixian+kelly.
half a dae for Fel+her twin bro birthdae party.
9 days of sch=27hrs of lessons.
============================> SHAGGED

upcoming will be super bz.
1) prelims like coming! (bet i haf to bring my books to ahma hse on CNY dae 1 and 2)
2) must teach sis JC stuff if she dunno if i rmb (cuz she taking same sub as me except bio)
3) must prepare me for my next stage of r/s. in the sense he gg ORD liao... another big obstacles...

so i think i realli haf to give up alot of friends liao
no time maintain so many.
here comes the reminder frm pri sch besties.
keep a few best friends can liao...
haha
so useful quote lo.
at this point of time i realli no time to socialise so much..
jus wish to lead a simple and peaceful life..:)

dun wan regret like i did in JC.
i can like watch 7 movies in 2 weeks after prelims. LOLS.
tts my record..

regarding my accounting wish.....
CONSOL IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.
i am turning mad liao lor..
its tough like crazy......
always make me thing if i am capable of being one
come to think about tt
i haf so much questions
i cant even understand basic POA adjustments..
i think i haf to go back to year 1's stuff AGAIN.

2010-01-26T19:15:00.003+08:00

sighs. todae is FR again.

i totally so scared for the first 30 mins of the lesson
he keep asking ppl ans qn
i none oso dunno. keep asking xy
but we sittin first row i dun dare everytime ask her
cuz think he will end up asking me!
but lucky he dint call me
if he call i realli will sae nth one.
den fr students will noe i cfm die one.

worse is i forgot to bring CALCULATOR todae
normally he want to see us calculating while he go thru one
hw can i even forget to bring!
so scared la..

todae he go thru de thing..
ask de thing
i ALL oso dunno
double entry. basics of accounting
i know nothing.
nt tt i dun wan ans his qns. but i realli dunno the ans.

okay during break i took $2 in my pocket
den i go toilet
end up i lost it...
its nt tt $2 is alot jus tt i think why so unlucky
but den mavis concepts apply again
lose sth will gain sth.
shd haf lose bigger. haha.

haf set alot of things thinking jus nw...
after i succeed liao den i sae wad things...
regarding 3 things.. :)

2010-01-24T22:24:00.003+08:00

i'm abit sian...
i haf lesson on the ECR commence date!
i cant pon la..
by the time i reach home
i cfm will get shit timing..
tt time after a short time most of the gd timing class gone.
landed me up with 4 schs a dae
and even gt time like 3.30-6.30!
super sian.
see hw sian i will get if i haf to choose april 10 and 11.
*pray hard*

todae we are supposed to buy fel presents
for her party this sat.
end up couldnt get anything
but a few tops for me and 3belts
which i think need to alter.
lols.

haha. nw the charity show gt my fav dance show lei
is the couple hanging in the air one..
too bad its nt my dai yang tian and jeanette.
den will be super nice. haha.
but hai hao la.. its felicia..

ok back to todae..
walked ard bugis which is super crowded todae.
even my long bus journey is so crowded and warm
i stayed inside there like one hr.
haha.
but i still love long bus journey..

anyway yang chen ling de yu ai realli gt alot alot of nice songs.
one of which my sis said is 匿名的好友
ya its super nice...
i like alot of the new album songs:)

haf alot of thoughtsssssss
i feel so many things are bothering me.
but i will control my mind well soon.

cuz prelims are coming
at this rate i gg i gg to flunk it.
lols. i think i flunk all my tests 1 except for
ME which the ans are like up or rather open book test
tests 2 is coming on starting feb

2010-01-23T13:17:00.003+08:00

lols. seriously todae ME we were all distracted
at least for the 2nd half of the lesson.
with our conver
tt we dint realli listen anymore..
but even if we arent talking
my mind will be wandering.
dunno these few daes i haf been in a state of confusion.

jus when i made a decision
the next few daes coincidentally or sth.
so many things appear right in front of me
as if telling me sth
dunno....................................................
but at least for nw i haf been trying to control my mind
dun wan change liao...

i dunno why so coincidentally this month 4 ppl ask me the same thing.
same qn.
i stun for all the ans.
although i want to ans yes, but its nt up to me.......
maybe its so surprised cuz the last 3 person is ask within these 2 daes!
sighs..
ask me this kind of qn i will emo one lei
hope no one ask me anymore.
i cant ans this qn oso even if i want it to be Yes.

anyway..
a guy told me that.
first few years of r/s,
maybe the guy is like eating chicken rice.
den of cuz he will get sick of it..
after which he will want to try other food which is better?
maybe after which he will go back to his chicken rice.

are all guys liddat?
see hw...

and damn my da yi ma came knocking on my door todae.
so xin ku.......
da ya ma nv fails to come no matter hw stress i am
dunno is tt gd or bad.....

i am so sleepy and tired
and other emotions u can think of.

2010-01-22T09:49:00.002+08:00

its so sad hearing and seeing minshi's video
or rather the word to use is touching.
but too bad for myself
i dun believe in it anymore.
nt nw
maybe a few years later.
but i dun want.
i want to believe.
damn.
shut up and go back to studies sn!

Jiayou..

studies are getting bad to worse.
but i arent gg to give up.

2010-01-20T10:10:00.003+08:00

Sighs.
yesterdae during Fr was struggling
and stressed.
tt my stomach pain again..
dint ate much of a lunch.
sighs. i tried but my stomach is like super sensitive
dint ate breakast in sch too
cuz onli had 5 mins. enuff for me to find a toilet..
had to even run
cuz if lecturer start even 1 min b4 i back
i will jus die.. lol...
its like miss one = all die..
summore its CONSOL

lunch was with sis and dad at city square
ordered LJS
ate half the portion.
met mabel yest
bakutteh for dinner
the soup there nt concenrated as it was b4
when i went with ice tt time
but we over-ordered...

2 bakutteh, 1 cai xin, $2 you tiao, medium some intestines.
lol..
after which went shop shop
forever 21, i bought 2 tops and a shades..
but 1 top i cant wear for cny cuz its dark brown
i am gg cny hunting on feb
nw no time le..
gt tests coming up liddat!

after which went vivo rooftop there.
with our starbucks.
i took one with like FULL whipcream on top
haha.
siao one..
i ask mabel wad i see
she so smart.
she reply see fats.
hahaha

after which cab down to jalan kayu
cuz she craving for supper...
so i ordered tissue prata
it look super big
oh milton came cuz he wanted eat supper too.
and since its near his hse..

and ahyi came fetch us home ard 1 plus
i so scared la.
in the car tt milton keep saying shdnt-sae-things.
lols. worse man.
ask him shut-up he dint get any hint one lo
argh...
die liao lo..
sighs. see hw lor...

hais. gg copy a bit consol tt i copied in my foolscape
and wait for lunch call...
gg out for lunch :)

2010-01-17T19:14:00.003+08:00

haha yest i told my bf of all the dreams this week
he isint in my dream lei.
den i sae he will be in my dream tonight
so i spent the whole night dreaming again...
and he inside.
sighs...
all my dreams veri long one lei
i like nv rest at all
cuz i can rmb my dreams clearly..
and 90% is all nightmare........

hais..
i need some support and encouragement
and something to rant on
but dunno hw and where.
maybe it all stands down to myself,
if i can be more hardworking, more smart and more practice
but no matter hw hard, i failed.
realli..
i doubt my ability to do well for this course actually
i mean if i do i want to do it best
nt jus average
but at this point of time i dun even noe hw to pass
esp my CORE SUBJECTS.

maybe one month later things will be different..
see hw.

2010-01-17T01:47:00.002+08:00

why isit when its when schooling...
gg-to prelim/exam period..
den gt so much things i wanna do!
den when exam over... i like dun realli want to do anymore...

argh.
i want to watch alot of shows.
my yang cheng ling with show luo de.
den the current cyndi wang and wang dong chen one..
and the first to watch is the qi zhi de you huo!
haha...

i oso want do alot things go alot place.
1) picnic
2) cruise
3) beach
4) and alot alot

nw super tired liao
think go sleep better.
day dream oso no use
after exam den sae... hahaha

2010-01-17T00:01:00.003+08:00

meet bf todae
den walk ard shopping for gifts..
after which evening we went to meet
bestie jiamin and sam
haha..
Crabbing party!

ordered chilli crab and salted egg crab
i still prefer the salted egg crab
maybe cuz other crab like quite normal..
den this one abit special
haha

hmm..
so after some talking session we went to walk ard..
den stop at the playground there..
lie down and look at the stars...

samuel said... every night there will be this kind of star de patten
like 3 stars in a row... den there will be 4 stars at each corner of tt
ya! so true...
i wanna noe the story behind it..
he say he heard of it but forget le..
but its so true lei.. its like there...

if possible i dun mind staying there the whole night lei
so nice... :)

but time pass so fast...
like so fast 11 plus le.
so home sweet home
and super pai seh lei.
tt samuel drove us back again.
i realli veri pai seh one lei...
cuz its like buangkok
back to farrer park
den sent jiamin at sk...
den back to his hse..
omg...

but anyway goodnight ppl..
super sleepy.
tml must compensate liao lei...
hais..
i am relax when i am out
but when i am back home
i think of ppl ard me super hardworking
studying like mad..
i will stress one :(

2010-01-15T12:57:00.002+08:00

supposed to rest for half an hr for lunch
end up i am stuck here for one hr
its pig sam birthdae todae

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO DIBP PIG SAM

haha i realised i cant sae those touching words to her
like miss or love or wadever..
i will imagine her vomiting...
and i will feel wierd oso
hahahahaha
i onli use words like heartless and rubbish, etc.
hahahahaha

OMG i cant understand ALOT OF SCH THINGS.
need to bury myself in books todae
and to COMPLETE my fr assignment!

TML WILL BE CRABBING PARTY
chilli crab
black pepper crab
salted egg crab

YAY. GAIN WEIGHT
YUMMY YUMMY.

2010-01-15T00:34:00.002+08:00

argh...
i wanted pack my things
spent the whole night sorting out my fr and hrm onli
So many many many things!
so tired.
must pack my table tml to make way for fr and hrm
den tml night pack fm and ME!

Argh wanted go Prawning
but jiamin suddenly got programming lesson at 3.30!
hw to prawn... hahaha.
unless at night?
but bf got scdf work the next dae!
there goes my prawns. hahaha....

oh ya! i gt the new yang chen ling CD le
the song veri nice!
omg... haha. but i dun like her perm-ed hair lei
last time she more innocent cute pure sweet etc
haha nw become more mature liao
but still her songs veri nice one : )

2010-01-14T12:48:00.003+08:00

I am supposed to be better
but yest my itchy mouth took some cuttlefish and chocolates
and shared curry puff with dad..
lunch i had cravings for hot and spicy food
so mum bought some kimchi noodles which i think will be ok
cuz nt tt hot or spicy..
so i coughed the whole night..
argh...
besides tt i had a wierd nightmare again!
almost everydae. lols..

yesterdae's one quite wierd
either me or my friend locked someone up in a room
after some time she/he broke free
and kidnapped us instead (2nd time i gt kidnapped this month)
i duno why we can stil use the fone to call the police
but after so long no one came yet
and wierdly, for the 2nd time we became friends with the kidnappers.

the other time was kidnapped at some deserted hse
but nw upgrade to hotel or sth le..
haha. maybe next time is my desired fairy tale land. hahaa.
maybe castle? if nt den hansel and gretal hse..
since i keep thinking of food and threats.

with the help of my medicine i could sleep within a few mins these few nights.
haha so i duno isit gd or bad to get sick
i am ok with being sick
but dun wanna no energy or diahroea can le

oh ya! mondae during hrm break
me and rt bought the potato cum chicken salad
i tot tts the only edible food in level 4..
after tt time i ate the rock fishball and xy ate the frozen burger
(exaggerating)

rt said his was abit suan..
mine i tot was ok
i ate half and wanted to gave away my egg or sth
i lifted the egg up and gt a shock of my life
the potato decomposed already
i mean was black
i am like oh shit!
it was like covered under the egg so i dint noe
den i jus threw away.
i doubt i am gg to buy any food frm level 4 anymore...
maybe i am jus plain unlucky

if i diahroea again ah, i sure cry one.. lols

oh ya tt dae i met up with bf
i bought another purple jacket. haha.
and he got me another jeans.
but the place we go realli scary lei...
the ppl turn angry and like keep pestering and asking to buy
and keep influencing to buy, like jus take out
den make me feel bad tt kind.... argh
if bf nt there i sure buy one.. lols
but they realli veri smart lei
and cunning! shdnt go there to buy anymore!

cunning nt in the sense jus place a shirt at the cashier there
they jus put it in a bag, haven key in the price
den is must pay liao..
den like sae nonsense thing like i put inside the plastic bag liao
cant take out le..
i mean like give another better reason at least? hahaa

anyway its FM later!
i veri lazy to get out of bed
after lying there for a few daes..

2010-01-11T20:37:00.006+08:00

practically sleep the whole dae.
dun feel tt i haf strength after tt even
after medication jus fell asleep after 5 mins.
sighs...
maybe i shdnt eat nw
cuz waste my time
shd eat at night.
hais...

another wasted dae....
jiayou tml.
and the dae after
and the dae after tml
sighs...

i think i am gg to sleep early todae..
i scared the medicine still cant wear off...
den tml hw to go sch....
i think cuz i slept for 3 hr plus den keep waking up and sleep.
tts why my body so tired
haven fight finish the war...

shall go try find hw to write CPP for fr assignment...
and complete it by WED!
MUST..

2010-01-11T15:10:00.002+08:00

Thanks aunt for booking the chalet for me...
so it will be at aloha changi
haven realli invite ppl yet..
cuz its like april 10....
Changi Seaview Chalet A
decided to agree when my sis and aunt ask
cuz i doubt i will haf time to individually meet ppl
haha. this is so much easier...
my stupid exams coming like 10 daes afer my birthdae...
and yay! its beside the sea there.
i can see SUNRISE and SUNSET:)
[seriously i hope no revision class that dae!]

so i went to see the doctor after HRM
anyway the final thing i ask the doc is
hey if i gt sorethroat and running nose can i jus eat the medicine
i everytime like gt these 2 sickness
and he give me the same medicine...
shd jus self medicate next time if gt leftover.
anyway so happy
the medicine will make me drosy
den sure can sleep early tonight ;)
for tml CONSOLIDATION ACCOUNTS

argh..
its supposed to open at 2pm
but the doc reached like 2.45??
i wanted study inside there
i took out my notes...
but the nurse keep talking to me
complaining about the job....
the doc.. his wife.. her pay. her job scope
den i keep oh. ya. icic. den hw.
argh waste my time lei...
i wanted sae since u dun like why dun quit
but she tell me herself she wanted to
but den she scared nth do at home.
arghh

2010-01-10T22:19:00.005+08:00

todae met up with bf for lunch..
macdonal first
den my fav popeyes.
dint eat much..
cuz i SORE THROAT.
omg!
but i realli want to eat lor.
i realli love popeyes to the max. haha.

after which bf de friend.
patrick.. asked him play mj
den we went his hse play..
den his gf oso.
argh i realli feel i play mj or gamble i veri childish one
haha.
anyway todae i dunno shd i sae i super unlucky or lucky..
end up at first lost ard $30...
but luckily i all the way do "da pai"
man tai den zhi muo.
everyone pay me $6.40..
so end up i lose $8

but i lose or win i oso blame on patrick
hahaha who ask him bully me!
i veri easy target to bully one lei
end up i look so childish
ARGH.
i realli control already..

this week i dunno to be happy or sad or stressed or nt lei
4 daes out of the week i totally out lor..
almost whole dae..
i dunno if i shd stay at home and study nt...
although i keep sleeping
but.....
hais..
dunno....

relc + sam hse for one dae gone.
ngee ann poly + sam hse stayover
diahrroea whole dae+ plan sth whole dae gone oso
out with bf todae whole dae gone.. hahaa
( but dunno lei. i feel i dint like waste the time,
cuz at least sth is done and stuff.. sam tt one is inevitable,
bf is ok cuz i one week no meet him le
diarhorroea = sleep [haven been sleepin well for daes])

sux lei
NEXT WEEK CONTROL K
i will onli be out one dae with bf.
the rest will be STUDYING to compensate.

sighs i realli hope my stomach will listen to me...
i hao bu rong yi gain 1kg
den all diahrroe again
i realli lose more than i gain one lei
but nw i wont talk about my weight for some time liao
cuz my stupid dear forbid me to use the weighing machine
haha..

cuz i weigh myself more than 20 times a dae if i at home.
den i get depressed when my weight drop
so he make me nt weigh..
so i will estimate ba
veri tempting one lei!

hais.......
studies
and my stupid health
make me headache lei.....

2010-01-08T10:15:00.002+08:00

Super sleepy man
yest chat with her till 3am plus plus 4?
i dunno cuz she talk some i already fell asleep
hahaha
i see her pack luagage already sleepy lo
so sleepy....

her mum is nice to me
give me some chocolates and packets of biscuits
yay! gain weight...
hahaha.
hmm.. breakfast was eating some prawn noodle
made by sam's grandma?
i think its nicer than wad i ususally ate.

frm yesterdae to todae eat alot lei
but my output was more too
hahaha. arghh

oh her mama initially want sent me to bus stop
but my bus 67 jus left
haha so she help me chase after it..
i feel so pai seh lei..
when ppl send me home
haha so i keep insisting to bus stop can le
anyway its jus a few stops
and at least gt seats.
unless tt pig sam dun let me leave her hse till 10 plus pm
den i will make sure she drives me home. LOLS

ok so i dint sent pig sam off to airport again
cuz i dun like gg airport to send ppl off..
unless got ppl pei me go...
i dun wan alone go back home.. so wierd...
and emo... haha.
den summore all her friends gg sent her off oso
nvm la..
shall see her 6 months later...

tt idiot pig nv even prepare
my advanced birthdae prezzie..

2010-01-08T00:12:00.004+08:00

At DIBP pig sam hse nw
spending her last night in spore at her hse
hahaa.

Ok todae woke up super late
cuz the weather is jus too nice
haha so i rushed all the way to sch
throwing everything in my bag..
luckily i brought the correct notes!

Lunch was with usual clique
One of them brought her bf along!
tgt for 5 years lei. OMG
super long...
oh b4 tt i let them do a personality quiz
so fun :)
the most funny result is tt rt want ppl to see him as a tortise!

tt stupid bug tell the whole world i am pregnant
so childish
arghh.. spoil my image totally
cuz we took a pic den i dunno y i look pregnant there
we went ngee ann poly open hse explore
he even link the baby diaper with me
totally make me so embarressed!
or rather pai seh

oh and we gt a cute keychain :)
gt an extra one for dear...
lunch at ngee ann alumni was ok..
jus tt abit ex.. haha.
but my sambal fish was not bad..
mango pudding too.

after lecture went to sam hse
her mama den reached home and fetch us plus sam sis
to centrepoint for dinner
The Eastern Restaurant..
super nice the xiao long bao
its definitely nicer than crystal jade one..
and her mum say nicer than ding tai feng..
i feel the dumplings there is delicious too
and the spicy wanton!
so yummy and so full la
and as usual ppl keep trying to push all the food to me
hahaha
if everydae liddat sure gain fats..

so nw i am stuck at pig sam hse
feeling so sleepy
frm jus nw until nw she jus walk ard the hse
and packing her luagage here and there
so here i am!
hahah
arghh i spent the whole dae nt studying..
need to study like mad tml to compensate..

later gt pig sam advance birthdae cake oso. haha
but i am still so full
arghhhhhh

i feel so disappointed
but wad can i do
move on.
if this is wad u think i am
i've realli gt NTH to sae

2010-01-06T19:10:00.001+08:00

Todae like so tired... argh..
wanted post a few things yesterdae
but no mood.. hmmm..

mabel quek quek de o level results coming next mon!
so fast...
i hope she do well enuff to go nyjc
den at least someone will take care of my sis
haha.
den my sis sae will have free transport home oso..
but actually frm my hse to nyjc is less than 15 mins.
with the new circle line : )

next, my friend who i arent supposed to sae who..
secretly gt a bf for like 5 years...
its like SO SO SO long..
apparently its 59 months tgt.
and out of this 5 years, i think 2 or 3 years is long distance r/s one
so sweet! envy lots..
so hard to maintain one lei...
but till july this year they will be tgt again! : )

next yest while waiting for payment..
asked xinyi about the qi zhi de you huo..
haha she oso gt watch den my bf oso keep askign me watch
but i think i june den watch..
i dun wan chase after this 120 episodes nw..
haha by the time i finish main exam start liao..

ok my pig bf say i am like the En ci b4 she "died"
tts why the husband will find mistress.
argh he ask me to become the new En ci den he wont find liao
hahaha.
argh..

argh reading xy blog reminds me of everything to be done!
so much....
give me 48 hrs a dae pls.

2010-01-05T21:41:00.004+08:00

Hmm its becoming tougher and tougher..
todae after FR lesson
realli.....
super stressed....
but sigh wad kind of stress i nv take b4.
lols...

it jus isint my dae todae.
everything was jus so unexpected.
wanted rant out somewhere someone
but i realised i shd jus sort it out
or think of the more impt things ba..

argh and i still cant find tt story book!
hmmm..

Queueing 2 hrs for RELC was unexpected
worse is the taxi driver dint noe where isit
but dint sae he dint noe
i even told him near stevens road or opposite pines.
hais i shd haf jus walk there after alighting frm SCGS bus stop there.
anyway i noe hw to walk liao...
it became a sch all of a sudden
and instead of Grove. it drove us all the way to Grange road.
and the jam!

and for the way to sam hse
i WALKED all the way to near far east
den walk all the way back to RELC
den walk all the way to sam hse.
argh..
and the transport i took todae.
morning bus at least jerk 3 or 4 times in every 10 seconds
evening bus home was worse. shdnt describe
dunno todae is jus arent a bad dae...
(actually if my mood was okay, i wont be so pek chek of the above
i wont care all this stuff. but.... sighs)

towards other things,
Speechless..
dunno wad i shd sae.. hmm..

(arghs.. jus feeling abit ~ todae, but i will be fine sn! :))

2010-01-04T19:14:00.002+08:00

Argh... last night i cant breathe lo..
end up cant sleep.
2 plus 3 den sleep ba...
i keep trying to breathe properly.
stand up, lie back, walk ard, stone
end up still cant...
eventually fell asleep and woke up
feeling SUPER sleepy.
the last half an hr was rather ~

hais. dunno lei..
i nt stress or stress,
b4 sleep gt think stuff or nv,
super tired or nt
i nv fail to nt have a good night sleep..

weekends when my aunt back was worse
i slept on the fold up bed
we bought while staying at the hospital last year.
i totally cant move at all..
end up when i curl
the whole night in that position
keep waking up..
and my knee totally numb.
argh! i think i wake up at least twice or twice.
i rather sleep on the sofa i think.

at this rate i gg
i think every afternoon i need to sleep liao
if nt i realli veri tired
lose concentration easily
den after tt i will stress.
lols. cuz if i sleep means lesser time to study
hais.

i haf been trying to be less stressful
cuz i dun wan affect my diet and stuff..
sighs. but i dunno if i work best under stress or nt lei
hahaha.
hais.

P.s i am nt emo.
jus random
argh i think i better rest in bed early.
cuz tml morning its killer FR.

everytime when i feeling like giving up
wad my fr lecturer saes will come up to my mind
survival of the fittest.
to survive this tough course realli hor...
ARGH.
i think i jus do well for this degree den decide where to go..

2010-01-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

ARGH
supposed to upload pic frm 10-10.30
den study HRM
nw lei
OMG. stuck in a soccer conver with bestie and her bf
hahaha.
if add bf inside
sure all quarrel one
all like different one...

hais... 11.40 liao lei
no need study liao
ARGH
compensate tml!

currently 12.14 die liao
tml need wake up 6.25am
think i shd lock up my labbie somewhere soon!

2010-01-03T23:02:00.002+08:00

OMG
i spent one hr using comp
to upload the pics and after tt must discuss.
arghh
supposed to study my HRM
haha. cuz tml gt HRM... arghh.
mondae blues!

Todae i duno why its a happy dae
Maybe cuz i ate dinner with my stupid dear at pepper lunch
den walk ard.. talk some things..
den todae its JAMIE month annivesary
omg. dint realised time past so fast
her bf and her 51 months tgt liao!!!

and maybe cuz we got so many things to do
for double date
or maybe triple..
Me,Dear,Jiamin,Samuel,Jamie,Wenchuan
OMG!!
but jan so hard to meet.
most likely can onli eat dinner first...
picnic after exam ba.....
need meet pig sam and mabel for meal also
cuz they jus back

argh...... i promised pig sam to meet her one dae
but i gt sch these few daes
den she back onli for like 4 daes!
omg!
Give me more time pls...

Oh yea the next thing is DIBP pig sam come back
so sudden
hahaha.
so many sudden things...

haha.
dunno why i so happy although i these few daes like nv study much
hahahahah
shit man
must study like 10 times harder daily.
hais
SO MANY THINGS TO STUDY
ARGH......

ACCOUNTING is so TOUGH
sighs tell me its the right course for me...
i realli dunno liao lei..
due to some reasons.
nt onli cuz i think i cmi..
haha.
this one is small
the big one is i dunno i can survive anot

hais i used to think its a reputable job
but after i heard stories....

2010-01-03T10:09:00.004+08:00

sighs.
no matter hw much i see or try.
i still dun understand!
feels so stupid.
cant give up though
everyone seems to like finishing tt tutorial.
tripple STRESS!
i dun even noe when i can start
my hamper and assignment.
damn.
am i realli gg for this course?

2010-01-02T23:53:00.005+08:00

Lunch at PuTien was fantastic todae.
with family + aunts.
aunt gave us treat todae.
so yummy.
i ate alot lei.. tried everything ordered.
and i realli tried all the cakes they haf..
although its small..
i tried ALL. haha. den the jelly oso.
everything is delicious!
given some vouchers after bill
it's realli a gd strategy to increase customer base..
and attact ppl to come in. lols..

i realised no matter wad i eat i will still lose weight or maintain.
told my sis wad i ate yest.
breakfast ( 2 slice of bread (egg), 1 cup milo)
lunch ( one big bowl of noodles)
tea-break ( one container of tau suan)
dinner (realli 1 big bowl of rice)
supper (2 char sao bao and soyabean milk)
I lost bit weight tt dae still lei.
lols. i think i output > input...
(my aunt saes i jia liao bi... in hokkien- chinese mean eat=waste?)

lols i think i jus continue maintain this kind of diet
and slowly increase to 3 slice..
den 1.5 bowl of noodles
1.5 bowl of rice.
if i still cant gain weight
off i go to see some doc or wadever..
haha.

i realised wad my bestie said is supper true
there is no point maintaining so many friendship
where most of them arent real one..
den after spending maybe alot for one.. and time.
giving up studies and other impt stuff..
it isint worth it..
(unless u wanna sae lesson learnt so its nt realli nt worth)
lols. so random...
suddenly rmb-ed
i dun use to agree with her.
but as of last year things tt happened
i totally agree with her.

frm genie's song,
就算愛很難我也不怕失敗
一定有一天我會比你想像更勇敢

2010-01-01T22:02:00.001+08:00

Jiayou.
hope things for me, will remain or get btr : )
all the best to bestie oso.
and hope she gt the courage sn oso..
haha.

2010-01-01T13:18:00.004+08:00

lols. the onli special thing tt happen yest was
Alicia Koh finally accepted her libra bf.. hahaa
was at clark quay yest with her friends and my bf.
me and her lao ma keep hinting the guy to ask her at 12 midnight
lols
cuz she sae she this year dun want bf...
den shortly after 12 jiamin and the guy disappeared out of the pub

hahaa. me, bf and her laoma, cynthia
like detectives like tt keep following behind secretly
bf was the photographer who caught them holding hands.
haha..
they still dunno even bf went closely to them.
hahas.

conclusion of the dae: i shdnt even try gg to club
hahaha..
i drink nt much den cant liao...
super hot den my bf finish the rest for me
den i drank mixer instead. hahaha..

but the ambience wasnt tt great
and the drinks is super EX compared to other pubs ard
me and bf walk ard and see see...
but hai hao la....
wanted to see if can see fireworks
but got blocked by the high rise buildings...
want walk more but ppl keep spraying the party things oso..

ok stayed till near 3am...
den jiamin new bf sent us home...
haha.
All the best to Bestie and her BF
haisyo 12 years of friendship still need me to find out she gt bf :(
lols..
den i sun bian tell jamie so tt she can shoot jiamin with me
jamie shoot veri lihai one.. haha
me nt de..
i onli hw to tease them the whole night

-----------------------------------------------------------------

stressed!
jan liao
i still dun realli noe hw to study.........
still dun realli noe alot of things..
dunno hw to go about starting
or go about doing or revising and stuff
sighs

-----------------------------------------------------------------

the onli thing i regret and hate myself
is cant reach my target i promised
worse is i keep losing weight. hahaa.
i already ate one point five to twice the portion i usually eat
i still lose weight at a rate of 0.5kg per 5 hrs.
sometime even if i eat sth hor still will lose one. ARGH.

Last year (09) wasnt a gd year for me...
frm cny start till end... seems to be rough...
next year hope it will be ok..
but snake fan tai sui lei..
lols nv fan already so bad liao
arghhhhh....
hais.. see hw...

next year is another tough year...
year 2 exams is definitely tougher
and my stupid bf gg to uni liao
haha. he will meet more ppl ah...
and my sister gg to j1 already
must help her oso....

hope this year will be a GD GD year!!
and realli i need to gain some fats.
if nt ppl my bf veri poor thing
everyone sae he nv feed me.. haha
but i think its realli my stupid genes.
i need some scientist to help me modify the coding...

Thanks to those who walk with me this difficult year :)
All the best to everyone for the NEW YEAR...
i realli look forward to a GD NEW YEAR

2009-12-30T21:34:00.006+08:00

Loves bestie.

Todae is meeting besties dae.
met up jiamin first.
cuz jamie end work quite late
went walk ard bugis...
after which walk till near concourse there.
there gt astons..

haha think next time i will go there lei..
cuz the queue nt long..
but den the service nt tt efficient.
in the way the way the staff communicate.
so many misunderstandings..

todae so interesting..
gt this guy chasing my bestie.
den i keep testing him..
lols. after so many things
i understand guys btr.
so must see wad kind of guy is him first...
hahaha.

esp nw this period
the guy sure super gd one.
everything ok..
but hmmm...

anyway first he sae wanna fetch bestie back..
den jiamin make sure he can fetch me and jamie back
haha. den i sae one in tampines there one jurong
he immediately sae ok lei...
so shocking..
lols den tt jiamin sae passed first test liao
this one nt test lor...

i feel tt must wait for 6 months later
den accept...
haha.
jiamin hor..
always gt guys realli frm changi to jurong
queue to chase her one lei.. haha..
so hard to choose
haha. must choose for her..
jk...
i think is she more easily heart melt
so must see first. haha.
(sae more she will scold me one)

hmmm...
2 more daes it will be 12 years of friendship and counting...
lalala..

hais.. nw watchin the channel 8 show..
so sad...
sth happen to a guy..
den the guy cannot be with the gal
who was waiting for him..
den he made someone tell the gal
dun wait for him liao..
hais.. i think the gal will be super sad.

aiyo i nt emo ah
jus random.
lols.
i feel tt the guy shd tell the gal the reason.
but normally guy wont tell one
lols.. duno oso..
aiyo so complicated..

2009-12-30T00:25:00.003+08:00

yest i cant sleep lei
as expected.
i one plus still tossing and turning in bed..
two plus
i am trying to think of all the -ve things
so tt todae no matter wad hor i wont be so sad.
finally i slept

but 6.25am i wake up feeling super sleepy to the max
summore i veri stress den my gastric work todae..
xinku the whole dae..
and no appitete.
so scary one lei...

frm sch 11.30am to 11pm todae is so dramatic.
tt i send 100 plus msg i think and stuff..
cuz i veri xinku todae..
i oso dunno do wad..
i jus lie in bed and ~
meiyou study..

nw i think about it quite wasted.
i told xy nw i already in the prelim mood lei..
like if i need to wait for bus for 15 min
i will like why cant the bus come faster den can reach home study
like 15 min oso impt..
but of cuz i will try organise my time well.
cuz i need meet a few ppl next month lei

i am so glad i dint regret todae.
if i dint do anything
i will realli argh!
at least i did sth..
shall compensate tml..
after i meet besties.

jiayou more next time! : )

to confesss.
i todae quite angry and pek chek with my bf
den i complain to a few ppl
keep saying my bf:(
cuz i veri xinku
end up my bf saw all me sent msg-es.
luckily he forgive me.
<3

2009-12-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

hmm. during training tt time.
frm the office, 21st storey.. could see a veri nice view
of east coast park beach...
its realli nice frm the top..
i took a few pics..
but it dint turn out like wad it was
hmm but its still nice. haha.
the sea colour is veri nice oso..
i think its reflection frm the clouds

at first i prefer onli night skies where there are stars..
but nw dae time its oso veri nice and calm. haha.
i need it oso..
i wanna find one dae and stare at the sky and sort out my stupid thots.
and relieve all my stress by throwing pebbles in the sea or sth.
i wana see the sun rise and set too..
actually the sky has beautiful times frm dae to night..
haha. so random.
out with dear todae..
walked ard and shop for stuff..
and our dinner was at buangkok, sakura.
it sells yummy food..
wanted get crab but decided to eat it next time
so we jus ordered some random dish..
which is super nice. haha.

5 stars out of 5 for this lor mee lei..
i realli nv eat such a nice lor mee b4.. haha
the sauce v. nice.
although my hp cant take veri nice pic. haha.

my fav sweet and sour thingy.
but i dun realli like chicken. haha
i prefer sweet and sour pork. haha
stingray. haha. looks wierd with the sambal there
but its nt bad oso..
comparable to chomp chomp one ba.
haha
some fried rice..
i think its normal..
but hai hao la..

sighs i doubt todae i can sleep lei
i haf waited for tml for one year already
lols...
dunno but hais....
hopefully........
but no matter wad i will try to be okay
if things doesnt turn out the right way ba

i believe one dae things will get better.
when there is a will there is a way?
haha. cant think of any proverb that suits me.
but all i noe is i cant control this situation.
maybe all i can do is pray and hope for the best :)

jiayou all the way..

2009-12-27T23:52:00.002+08:00

卓文萱 - 1+1
专辑：Play n Fun【1＋1】

我没有心电感应
没有预知的能力
我只知道现在决定跟你再一起
爱如果经过算计
会失去它的意义
突如其来的雨下得才美丽

你的声音太清晰滴答滴藏在我心里
全宇宙你只能唱给我一个人听
藏好黑色的粉色的几百种情绪
面对你笑容是我唯一表情

我和你直觉成勇气幸福数不尽
1+1等于爱情
有些事简单到不行只要够专心
爱不是无解的难题

我和你直觉成勇气幸福数不尽
1+1等于爱情
有些事复杂到不行越想越生气
脑袋空空比较开心
除了你我谁都不理

曾经爱情对我要不客气
就算努力我还是走不出去
这次不知道是哪来的力气
也许爱你简单就像1+1

out of zhuo wen xuan new ablum
onli 1 or two songs is wad i like
this is one of them
haha..

2009-12-27T20:19:00.002+08:00

Bz month again :(
so much things to study
and DIBP pig sam is coming back
and gg to meet her for one dae..
and mabel quek quek is gg to be back
hais..
i need buy new year clothes oso ah..
sighs....
s.t.r.e.s.s.e.d.

but i believe wad i shd do nw
is some planning and time allocation.
lalala.

lols jus nw wanna blog so many things
but nw i totally dunno wad i wanna say...
lols

2009-12-25T22:49:00.003+08:00

i brought dear to me ahma hse todae..
haha.
both my ahma oso like him lei..
ok la..
but he dint stay for dinner.

after he left i played majong with sis and 2 young cousin
they suddenly turn pro
and noe hw to play lei..
one pri 2 onli...
i think cuz their father teach them
haha so lihai lei.
esp the brother.. haha. luckily nv play money
but i oso win quite some rounds
hahaha..

after dinner went to meet dearest jiamin and jamie.
waited for jamie almost an hr...
argh!
end up she come le.. jiamin's dad gotta drive her home.
so home sweet home
but we will meet on wed again for the catch up :)

so happy to meet a few of my friends tt i cant meet for months de..
i mean.. this jus shows tt friendship doesnt need to meet everydae
still can be quite strong.
its nt easy to maintain one ok..
hahaa.
it requires all parties to be positive.

tue is coming!
pls pass me all ur luck on tue..
i will return u on wed.
hahahaa
i dunno want to be excited nt lei
see hw ba

GOSH.
sch tml!
early in the morning!
ME lesson.
on a boxing dae.
arent it suppose to be a holidae?

2009-12-25T01:37:00.004+08:00

Watch bodyguards and assasins todae!
its quite nice..
haha i dunno why melissa keep thinkin i will sleep inside
maybe cuz i few part i shut my eyes
cuz i dun wanna cry..
quite touching lei.some scenes..

father unable to acknowledge kid daughter
father seeing his 17 year old and only son die in a horrible way
guy finally able to marry the gal his true love but died a dae b4
(frm the show can realli see is true love)
pregnant gal leave the father of her kid whom she love for the sake for the kid's future
gal who always say her father but gt no more chance cuz her dad died

and alot alot of sacrificing thing.
seeing one by one die for the sake of the reunifying china
i tink they wanna overthrow the Qing dynasty
cuz gt alot corruption..
den they wanna kill the "leader" of the rebel or sth
i abit dun understand the history lei.. sth liddat ba
veri touching show
sigh the most sad part is the young 17 year old died :(

Ok after the movie we went to shop for gifts
cuz tt bug dunno wad to buy for us.
so we went to choose gift frm him..
den we went NTUC to buy the groceries
end up its already 6 plus 7..
den we bus-ed back to mel hse.

by the time we prepared the food its 8
i am like argh. i need to leave at 8.30 to meet jielin
den i jus eat first lo
den i so scared and pai seh
cuz mel mum like gt cake and stuff..
den i feel bad
dint expect to delay and stuff.
but i still leave ard tt time..
and her mum pack me the cake she made
its realli YUMMY :)
her mum veri lihai one.. like everything oso noe
must learn some skills frm her soon.. haha

den me and jielin met at cck
i suddenly gt shock at the middle of the road
cuz i was on the fone with her
den i tot green light.
den i jus walk when its red.....
lols

ok den went woodlands and passed by our JC sch
den talk abit about JC times
and we keep saying wanna go back for the food
my fav mee siam!
but till nw haven go yet.. hahaha

when we reach hx hse i so shock
i saw a dog so identical to my size and colour todae
ahahha
new dog
its grey like wad i am wearing
and everyone agree it's as skinny as me
of cuz he is much like a bamboo
but its so identical to me i am so fascinated by it. lols

i tried to take foto with it
but it keeps moving..
and licking... lols

i wonder if can see but yea tts him
i forgot to ask wads his name.. ahaha

had bit of BBQ food

den xy left...

me and jielin stayed on bit longer...

den left to catch the LRT back..

cant take a perfect pic..

tts the best one i can find...

Thanks for all the christmas gift given todae.

haha. and for mel's mama who bake the cake for us

YUMMY..

and of cuz the planners for todae..

2009-12-23T21:10:00.001+08:00

feeling btr after understanding where the figures come frm
but i still dun understand the logic and stuff
i shall find my lecturer one dae.

HMM...

2009-12-23T19:06:00.002+08:00

sighs.

confused over hw shd i feel
1)happy
2)guilty
3)stressed; or
4)disappointed

but out of all, i am more of stressed
I did almost nth todae.
tried to study
i couldnt understand a single ~~shit~~ out of FM
capital structure.

Anyway, i couldnt get hold of the No journey too tough lei
i went Borders den the person checked and said dint haf.
i went popular... they sae dun haf..
and said will get back to me after they get to their suppliers
by yesterdae..
he dint call me back!
shall see if kino has it one dae..

:)

2009-12-21T22:19:00.003+08:00

Brain nearly exploded reading the extra readings.
still couldnt figure out wad it is all about!!
stuck at tutorial again the whole dae..

luckily monkey taught me step by step jus...
i did the totally wrong method.
following the extra reading which is wrong
no wonder i dun understand the figures when xy told me!

realli do until veri pek chek wanna cry
super stress one lei
every time gt hw, the whole dae wasted on stoning at the qn.
last mondae oso.
sometimes i feel i am rather ~~stupid~~
if i am still like dead dead nt flexible
i wonder hw am i gg to do accounting next time...

but of cuz wads my small setback compared to the
poor family again frm life transformer...
everytime after watchin this show
i am always reminded tt there are ppl
who need help at every second..
but yet..
after tt i will jus passed it on..
den forget about it..
as though there isnt...
hais.

they are easily contented
all they need is jus new furniture to make them realli happy
maybe tt could be comparable
for me hor..
currently jus a simple thing can make me happy for maybe a week
lols.. maybe onli my pig dear noes wad..
and maybe there will be a few others who will noe wad:)

everytime sae holidae want to do volunteer work
end up oso nv. lols.
hais.
but nw hor i realli need to think of my FR.
i totally shut off all my modules for this.
for quite long le..
sighs.

to end this

HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO ME SISTER :)
JIAYOU ALL THE WAY.
STAY STRONG

2009-12-20T21:50:00.004+08:00

P.s. the small font is jus some stupid thinking of mine
i am not emo anymore okie..
its jus my thots at that point of time
i dint think about it after one hr
den sort out my thots le.

Anyway training was bad for me...
starting doc wanted 2 junior consultant to demo.
listed felicia and mavis
i am the stupid one who sae dun want la.
end up the 4 junior consultant haf to sae..
Fel was the first
den doc keep saying excellent after she sae
den dear oso did quite gd...
den when its my turn.
HORRIBLE.

i am okie at the 1st doc side..
he sae my starting and content v gd.
jus tt ending need touch up...
when it coem to the 2nd doc
i was the last one
he make everyone sit ard lei
i totally stun..
i cant rmb all my words i used to sae.
i jus crap basically RUBBISH.
no link one..
every sentence he has to correct
i was thinkin oh f.
realli oh f lei..
and my dear was sitting beside doc
den keep giving the omg u shdnt sae tt look and expression
i totally MUMBLE and STONE and BLANK
and jus give a BLURR LOOK...

tts it man...
although b4 i wasnt the best consultant.
at least i got prove myself
able to sign ppl when onli i ard.
but nw no more liao
they think i no confidence.
i realli no confidence when i telling ppl,
esp ppl i noe or close one
summore they noe the stuff oso
if is customer i realli nt stress
can say 10 times more confident lo
even if the customer is other chiropracter
maybe i am jus WIERD

disappointed with myself.
but den i noe i shdnt think this way
i shd prove it next time
i can do it oso
CONFIDENT PLS.
and DUN GET AFFECTED EASILY
or STRESSED

I jus nw realli no mood
but it was onli for some time la..
anyway i doubt i gg to work for the next 5 months
cuz of studies.
so think when i settle studies first den think hw
i already stress like crazy
realli gg to die with studies
consolidation accounts frm jan...
when i still trying to figure out those confusing accounting standards!!!
HELP ME..
i realli gg to keep fan-ing my aunt when she is back..

anyway after tt i was feeling happy
during dinner : )
thanks to ice sis
w/o her i wont feel so happy todae
b4 dinner i keep thinking
"i am veri hungry"
like psycho myself
although i am SUPER FULL
i jus had lunch at 4 plus pm.
but i think this dinner is enuff
to make me happy for one week :)

but of cuz i dint get to study todae
need compensate le...

2009-12-19T16:43:00.002+08:00

I felt better after realising wad happen todae
history will still repeats itself.
I mean i realised i did nt choose the wrong choice
luckily...
so all my choices yesterdae is finally answered
by myself..

argh but i spent ME lesson wandering stuffs.
here and there.

i realised i need 50hrs a dae to finish everything..
and i haf expanded my appitite these few daes
but i've gt diahroea every morning..
so i wonder isit tt i cant drink milk at all.
even soya bean milk.
hmm

was it me
or isit the ppl i've met?

2009-12-18T23:59:00.002+08:00

ended lecture late todae!
as expected... but it was worth it..
left sch at 10.50PM
tml gotta wake up 6.30AM for school
in the morning again!

Den why am i here?
1) i wanna blog out wad the lecturer saes cuz its again inspiring
2) i am confused over alot of choices to make. its nt jus one.
if i dun blog i think i dun need sleep liao

Ok, the exams date are out.
5th may FM
20th may ME and HRM
25th may FR.

it is well spread out.
but 5th may is like so near to my birthdae
so sad..
although i dint ask for anything
but den like still need to think about exams.
*stressed*

as wad lecturer saes..
if haf 2 difficult paper on the same dae.
normally ppl will complain.
but wad he saes make sense
"survival of the fittest"

next he introduced us to this book
"No journey too tough"
(so gg to buy this book)
its about someone with child poliomyelitis
ten marathon acrosss 7 contingents in 65 daes
( i doubt i will be able to do so)
raising millons of funds for charity.
although nw he is diagnosed with cancer
he is still doing strong. and still raising.

so if i complain tt too tough
stressed. and stuff...
den i must be super immature.

maybe its ok to complain about being stressed
but must noe wad is the next step to do
practice more?
study harder?
lesss play?
there will be some way.
jus tt see which priorty u rank..

dunno lei, words tt come frm my fr lecturer
veri powerful one...
he teaches us alot of things todae
and actually every lecturer
which i think is cuz useful to us..
telling us real world things..
i like to hear these stuff one.

Next point of this blog
i realli haf alot reasons to make.
1) work next month?
2) integrity or friends?
3) choose a place to go tt u will be happy? or friends?

the 1st one i actually already made up my mind
jus tt i gt a few things tt tempt me.
but well i will still stand by my thots
no matter wad ultimately,
wad i want get is gd results..
its nt about time management ba
cuz i nt much in need of the money currently.
summore i haf family factors to consider.

i am unable to sae wads the choice 2 about
cuz it is veri serious.
sighs i oso choose integrity
but I CANT REJECT PPL one lei
ppl ask me wad i oso feel bad to reject one
sighs so stupid...
i duno isit a gd character or bad one.

last one. i realli dunno hw
but i shall find a way through

sighs..
in life u haf to make choices and decisions
make the one u think is right
dun make the wrong choice.

perhaps i am given all this
to train me..
so next time i am equipped and ready
for the REAL WORLD
hais.. next life i dun want be a human who thinks alot.
lols..

2009-12-17T00:37:00.003+08:00

Well, my sis get 2 tickets for the
fei lun hai thing at st james todae...
thanks for giving the tickets to my sis :)
that ticket can go backstage one..
so my sis quite excited..
mum followed her to go cuz she jus done ~ yest.
i am quite surprised my mum let her go..
cuz its quite crowded
but she managed to take foto with them
and get them to sign autograph and write some things...
and my sis fav hat nw has wang dong chen signature oso
haha
too bad i gt lecture frm 7PM to 10PM.

it was nt bad cuz lecturer ends early.
i am prepared to sae make up class on fridae will be
6.45PM to 11PM (most likely)
and of cuz my sat lesson is at 8.30AM
:(
can i jus camp in sch. lols

Isint christmas a holidae :(
It doesnt seem like one...
it seems more like a bz period..
Fridae we are gg to haf a "present" from the lecturer.
oh well.. judging frm wad is given the other time.
and stuff.
i already expect hw it would be...

time seems to pass realli fast.
a blink of an eye, its gg to be jan soon.
Jan is another bz period.
followed by new year.
then prelims
den revision lecture.
and in btw tt is the supposed to be special
but end up it will just be a normal dae..
and then lastly main exams!
its like so fast...
it seems like i jus took the year 1's exam yest.

and stupid bf, i wanna watch couple retreat!
lols..
i heard its quite a funny show
comparable to my gf is an agent
i missed tt so i wanna watch this!

i cant wait to go shopping some daes.
but i am so bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz bz
and stressed with sch work i doubt i will shop with ease
maybe after one hr i will think
oh shit wads fr impt bout?
wad are the factors to rmb...
hw do i account for leases
wassup in P & L or balance sheet
which need to be capitalised?
which value cannot be used....
oh well....

2009-12-15T17:34:00.003+08:00

Perhaps i need to read more...
practice more FR
realli can do until cry lei.
hais. but of cuz wont give up la.
Jiayou..

todae i blanked out halfway...
end up i couldnt catch up with wad teacher sae
i totally blurred.
Wow. i realli wonder hw am i gg to understand it more nw..

No matter wad,
hopefully i wont regret this path.
i am v. easily stresssed though.
so many things in mind...

somemore,
FR+FM+HRM+ME isint a good combination.

2009-12-14T20:13:00.004+08:00

I agree with wad Quan Yifeng says..
this is a simple love:)
its so touching.
their son oso veri filial and sensible..
and v mature.
it reminds me tt i am so opp. sighs.

life transformer is a must watch by me lei..
i normally feel v pity of them one..
by seeing hw others lead their life.
sometimes it reminds me tt
i must be content with wad i haf

todae spent the whole time at lib
maybe more than 4 hrs.
staring plainly at FR.
i still cant do my tutorial.
i dunno why
and began doubting my ability
but on bus i saw another volunteer show..
inspire me again.
sometimes i forgot tt there are other less fortunate ppl
trying their best.
so i shdnt give up easily.

2009-12-13T21:35:00.002+08:00

A re-watched of the housewife holidaes
reminded me of the chinese tea, ice latte and red wine thingy.

So i asked bf wad kind of beverage he like out of the 3..

bf replied he like chinese tea cuz more comfortable with that,
but with friends den will choose to drink the ice latte.
den at night maybe drink red wine...

frm the tv programme,
linking the drinks to describe a gal...
chinese tea means sth tt is drank after brewing alot of times.. traditional..
till its like quite bland.. den dun realli haf flavour after sometime.
ice latte has more flavour. more interesting
red wine means more additive type, will nt want to stop drinking kind..

so maybe when i am with him i shd be more reserved
meet his friends tt time must be more interesting
but i dunno hw to be addictive. lols...

but after he noe wad isit...
he tell me he want ice latte nw...
den few years later den red wine..
den when he settle down with the person
den become chinese tea

den i ask him wad am i..
he sae chinese tea trying to become ice latte.

This week gotta handle 6 daes schooling consequtively..
jiayou !
more fr accounting theories, confusing fm, theoretical hrm, boring ME.
lols.

2009-12-12T20:56:00.002+08:00

Finally i am done with my HRM.
added in one example
hahaa. but i really cant think of any more..
jus when HRM is load off my mind...
FR tutorial pops out...

Found another blog...
After reading it.. i have more thoughts.
but of cuz i will nt focus much on the negativity
i am still well and fine :)

Over sth else
i have no either to confront or act blurr...
perhaps its better for the latter :)

Anyway its another nightmare yesterdae...
i wonder when all these are gg to end....
dint slept well last night so ME was like half asleep
but struggled to listen to wad lecturer saes...
but survived and home sweet home to Zzzzz
feeling much better nw..

2009-12-11T23:28:00.003+08:00

Haf paused at my assignment with 900 words..
no idea of hw to continue..
there isint any single example to sustain my viewpoint
and much of wad i written i think is like nt to the point
sighs...
i realli gt no idea hw to continue..
current the 2 friends with the same HRM lecture with me..
hasnt done it yet...
shall wait for them to do ba..

tml is ME..
yet i dun haf the mood to go and sleep...
i duno why..
maybe even if i sleep i oso will haf nightmares or wad.. lols.

oh ya i finally talk to DIBP pig sam
who got the same sickness as me
but hers for the past few daes..
and my friend online.
who tell me alot of stuff
which must set me thinking again :(

gosh so many things to think
hahahaha.
my brain cells....

but sometimes i need friends to talk to me
den i will see things frm another point..
but as time passes..
i lost it and back to my old thinking.
sighs... maybe i need constant reminders
frm alot ppl.... lols.
i need more talks...

2009-12-11T13:42:00.003+08:00

After struggling with.
food poisioning,diahroea, bloatedness, stomach cramp, indigestion and gastric.
for the past 2 weeks..
i have been feeling better nw.
but the process seems like a pattern
tt goes ard in circles..

diahroea -> diahroea medicine (bloatedness) -> appitite drops -> tried to gain back lost weight -> eat like mad ( indigestion ) -> bloated again so eat lesser (abit diahroea) -> gastric -> medicine make me bloat again ( stop diahorea medicine) -> suddenly diahroea (back to square 1)

Wow.
but i am ok with the sickness
i jus dun want it to affect my weight..
i reduced my aim to 40kg by Dec 09.
if nt at least look abit more normal by the last week of Dec

Sch is driving me more crazy..
the amount of work..
it cant be done even with 24hrs a dae..
trying to pluck in time here and there.
trying to pick out impt things instead
to compensate for the reduced time available..

yet to complete my HRM assignment..
first time starting at this first assignment..
it seems like HRM noe me.. yet i dunno them
sometimes i want a break.
i wanna go out and play to relieve stress.
but i scared i will feel even bad cuz the time lost can be used to study.
i still want find time to meet my bf..
i haven been meeting him much..

but well no matter wad i will find time ba
i guess i am feeling this way
cuz i feel bad resting instead of studying when i am sick for the past 2 weeks
i guess frm nw i shd be better.
cuz i can spent more time in studies.
den i can find time to go out...

btw, met up with vaneza
after nt meeting for one year plus..
went to near my hse de city square mall
its like decorating for chirstmas
it seems like small part of orchard.
haha.
dunno lei. they are still constructing..
but i like the idea of an eco mall..
leading to garden den lead to romantic stroll
hahahaha.
i wanna see the final result of it.
hope it looks ard like wad the advertisement shows hw it will be..

So many things..
oh recently i haf been following one gal's blog
i think she is v. strong
i think i need find more blogs to read...
i wanna be v strong : )

2009-12-08T12:54:00.003+08:00

stomach is as and when pain like mad.
cant stand it lei
sighs..
i dunno wads wrong with it..
xinku all the way..
but of cuz i can endure it.
no matter wad i will still crawl to sch for FR.

FR is another thing tt turning me crazy..
more and more accounting standards
when i still trying to understand the previous standards..
sighs...
the bad part of having some lessons turned to Make up class
is tt..
everything is gg to be cramped tgt
i need more brain cells to survived next week
6 daes lesson straight.
2 of it which is FR.
if everything is as easy as ABC
if there is no such thing as it depends...
den everything will be much simple.

other things floating on my mind.
like brain resting on the Dead sea.
dunno float where. haha.

Haf trouble sleeping the past few nights
yest was a bad nightmare
which reflects wad is happening.
it shd be frm my think-too-much thing.

need more sleep..

2009-12-06T19:21:00.004+08:00

I spent more than half of the dae
recuperating in bed..
after the second doc's visit
i am feeling the same as b4.
i think i offended my health god in some way
for this year...
i haf been sick technically for ard 2 month plus.
this time its my stomach.
and some indigestion..
and and adition factor nw. gastric.

it's supposed to extend frm my sickness last week..
it make me bloated and cant eat at all ah
and threw up all my meals
i tot i am ok after sentosa cuz i eeat quite alot
i am back to square one nw..
i think one dae there will be some hole in my stomach
i better do sth nw b4 it becomes too late...

Ok, went K box with Bf after Lesson yest..
went to one branch
which i haf problems choosing songs
i think i dun like the new kbox system
or maybe i am nt used to it..
and alot songs i like dun haf one..
esp by my yang chen ling and genie..

Last thur after lesson went to watch movie with rt and mel..
ninja assassin
OK. to me its a bit Gore..
i abit gore oso dun like one lei
i nt scared see blood
but i scared see tt kind of blood
i keep eating my fries
i veri full one lei
den i jus keep eating...
i veri scared one...
den dunno do wad oso
close eyes oso cant cuz gt the sound effect

after tt i got nightmare lei..
tt night..
i dreamt tt i gt kidnapped
den i tried to escape.
but kana caught.
in the end i dunno why the kidnapper is quite nice one?
wierd dream man..

but seriously i nv fail to dream every night
ever since 2 months plus ago again..
i wonder if sleeping pills help to erase the dreams..
haha.
i can eat pills nw
hahaha.

i shd go find some protein and fats pill sn
hehe.
jk..
i shd eat more meat
once i am fine..
seoul garden??